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mkmk_1

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May 26, 2023
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I need to rant. This has been said before.

I genuinely hate life and the way this works. I hate that I have to work, I hate the small amount of free time that I have. I hate that the only response I ever get, can be boiled down to "It is what it is", or worse, guilt tripping me for feeling like this because other people have it worse. It's like the only options is having pee in your cereal or a turd. This shit sucks. I don't even feel like I want to die, I just feel little else but hatred waking up in the morning and realizing that i'm still in this shit, and that there is no way out. It's starting to make me more emotional, it's starting to leak to so many other parts of my life.

I can't even sit down and play video games because the overwhelming dread of having to wake up tomorrow, the knowledge that I only have like an hour to enjoy this, and that this is the best it'll get in my life time. I used to feel pretty depressed over this, but now I just fucking hate it. I was fucking lied to, it doesn't get better. This is as good as it gets
 
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J&L383

Enlightened
Jul 18, 2023
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Indeed, life is tough. For some, they just go on and accept the conditions of it in some sort of naive blissful state. But for others like you and me, it seems like a total sham. Rest assured, you are not alone in your thoughts, and it doesn't make you mentally ill.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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The way you feel certainly is understandable, I get that it's so tiring and dreadful feeling trapped in an existence you hate, I cannot stand those people who guilt trip, they are so insensitive and lack any compassion.
 

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