Venting I hate that I have to choose to die

[ificouldlivewithout]

I hate that there is no other option for me. I hate that my parents won't even care. I hate the most of all that I will leave everyone with complicated grief because I was such a horrible human being. I won't be remembered well in fact they will feel relief and I hate that just me existing is a burden. I want to live but I can't and I hate it. I only feel bad for leaving my best friend and my sister. I'm writing this with tears streaming down my face. I had a fight with my mom that showed that my time has truly come. I hate myself and I hate my clueless mom. I told her I'm going to kill myself and she said that she doesn't care. Who knows maybe I will even do it now.

 

[Aflame5926]

I hate that there is no other option for me. I hate that my parents won't even care. I hate the most of all that I will leave everyone with complicated grief because I was such a horrible human being. I won't be remembered well in fact they will feel relief and I hate that just me existing is a burden. I want to live but I can't and I hate it. I only feel bad for leaving my best friend and my sister. I'm writing this with tears streaming down my face. I had a fight with my mom that showed that my time has truly come. I hate myself and I hate my clueless mom. I told her I'm going to kill myself and she said that she doesn't care. Who knows maybe I will even do it now.

that totally sucks. but was it in a fight and in a fit in a emotionion she said idc?

i would say if you gonna go leave something behind for your best friend and your sister.
dont let those that you care not griefing without answers. it can be a note or anything.

 

[SoLowHollow48]

You sound like you're in a really shitty state right now. What happened with you and your family and everyone around you? I mean, what's the worst shit you've ever done that landed you here with this "i am a monster" idea about yourself.

Shoot. We got nothing to hide here and we got all day to work through it like split ends with you.

 

[Death Diviner]

You sound like you're in a really shitty state right now. What happened with you and your family and everyone around you? I mean, what's the worst shit you've ever done that landed you here with this "i am a monster" idea about yourself.

Shoot. We got nothing to hide here and we got all day to work through it like split ends with you.

These are the questions that came to my mind too.