i hate not having any friends, not having a gf, i can't live isolated

[NothingElseMatters]

no human being can. i might be tough as fuck. they way i live most people wouldn't suport.

 

[lonewolf22]

I'm 40. Spent almost my entire life like this. Born with avoidant personality disorder. Absolute hell.

 

[Tired_only]

yep me either. Isolation feels so unbearably painful, death looks like bliss i wouldn't have to feel any emotions, i wouldn't have to feel rejected and outcasted looking on from the fringe of society while other people live their lives.

Your 20s are so sh*t they r the years when everyone is getting on with things, experiencing things and being intimate while im a lonely ugly person, rejected by everyone of the opposite sex..it literally seems impossible to find someone that would actually like you for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I know that loneliness can be painful for many and I know that it is awful living a life that you hate. This life really is so unfair and it is sad how so much suffering exists.

 

[Ideations]

All I can say is I relate to what your saying. I'm realizing lately that I've had social anxiety ever since I was a kid. Now I'm an adult and I haven't had a social life for like a decade. I've missed out on a lot of socialization and as a result have poor social skills. And when I manage to strike up a conversation, what am I supposed to talk about? I have no life and nothing interesting to say about myself.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I feel the same way I knew it was over at 14. I don't know if I can live past 35 with my mistakes. I missed social milestones too. I wish I was social popular and cool I had a chance to get out of isolation but I ruined it

 

[Cosmic dust]

Same here.

I notice that once I start posting things on foruns, I get a little better. I really miss having people to talk to, even if its random trivial stuff.

I am not sure how long I can keep going. I also doubt I will reach 35 years old.

 

[Marktheghost]

I can relate. I can't cope with the loneliness, and noone's interested in helping me!

 

[whatevs]

Isolation is one of the cheapest and most used forms of torture. With isolation, forced inactivity and lack of sleep you can torment people without having to devise anything complicated. Consequently, jail is torture but people pretend it is not.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

Yep, same here. I had zero social life already but at least had the chance to meet people at work (even if solely for work purposes). Covid lockdowns put paid to that too. It was just me within the 4 walls of my house for months, made the isolation 10x worse.

Now the lockdowns are gone but I've regressed mentally so bad that I can no longer hold down a job. So it's again back to the 4 walls of my home, lay down and rot alone for 24 hrs, day in and day out. I don't even have the mental strength to get up and eat food these days -- cut it down to twice a day a few months ago, now just once a day.

Honestly, there is not one good reason why I'm still alive. Fuck this world.

 

[FinishingLine]

Isolation is one of the cheapest and most used forms of torture. With isolation, forced inactivity and lack of sleep you can torment people without having to devise anything complicated. Consequently, jail is torture but people pretend it is not.

The sad thing is I had to go to prison twice (for minor offenses). I was working 6 to 4, then 1 hour outside in the air and later 1 1/2 outside of cell; cooking or meeting other inmates. But being locked up almost 24 not able to work is torture.

Even sadder is the fact that in prison I had more social contact than I do have now. I feel more imprisoned now, sometimes locked up in my dark room for days, not able to work, grinding my brain what went wrong.
Finding no way out of my situation.

I had quite a few friends over the years, 3-4 girlfriends, was doing sports, I would say people liked me.
Though never was good in keeping relations with other people over more than a few years.

This isolation has been going on now for more than 10 years.
I am so lonely and I don´t want to live like this any longer.

 

[AloneInCollege]

Loneliness and isolation is truly crushing. I often feel like a shell of a person.