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houseofleaves

houseofleaves

how's life treating ya?
Jan 14, 2022
633
there is a russian social media site called flymer,
it allows you to exchange anonymous messages with strangers and you can use a hashtag (like #tarot, #notowar, etc);
that day i wanted to chat with someone and choosed hashtag #psychological_help.

so, i received a message that said something like «a kind dude will listen to you and give advice». i, well, answered this dude something about having to CTB because i won't have a successful career (it's not only my opinion) and yadda yadda ya, AND — this dude straight up tells me that he struggled with his career too and that i should stop pitying myself.

the question is: CTBing is an unpleasant (or straight up painful) process which ends with — you guess it — death, so!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE NORMIES that are thinking that a person-that-is-going-to-ctb is pitying themself? i just… i don't get the logic behind it. pls haelp 😂
 
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cyanlove

cyanlove

looking for my other half (of my skull)
Dec 23, 2021
154
That guy sounds annoying good riddance.
 
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lostmylove

lostmylove

Specialist
Apr 1, 2022
304
Ya their world view is laughable. 'Just go to work bro' jus hit the gym, meet someone new etc etc ad Infinitium. It's sickening really how simplistic and pathetic their world view is. Living in a dreamworld. But in a way ignorance is bliss. I think if I had choice I'd rather live in ignorance rather than know the harsh and sadistic realities of life.
 
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houseofleaves

houseofleaves

how's life treating ya?
Jan 14, 2022
633
Ya their world view is laughable. 'Just go to work bro' jus hit the gym, meet someone new etc etc ad Infinitium. It's sickening really how simplistic and pathetic their world view is. Living in a dreamworld. But in a way ignorance is bliss. I think if I had choice I'd rather live in ignorance rather than know the harsh and sadistic realities of life.
life is a gift!!!!!!!!!
 
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unkuto

Student
Mar 13, 2022
132
You have to keep in mind that people outside this forum are never going to be that supportive and acceptable when you talk about CTB with them.
 
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houseofleaves

houseofleaves

how's life treating ya?
Jan 14, 2022
633
You have to keep in mind that people outside this forum are never going to be that supportive and acceptable when you talk about CTB with them.
of course i do! (i wasn't offended or hurt by his words btw, just wanted to share my experience; plus it's kinda liberating to be honest with a complete stranger that you will never meet again)
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,873
You have to keep in mind that people outside this forum are never going to be that supportive and acceptable when you talk about CTB with them.
It's amazing how we just have a perennial enemy that will never go away. An eternal war.
 
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houseofleaves

houseofleaves

how's life treating ya?
Jan 14, 2022
633
You need to establish a gratitude practice!!!!!!!!!! 🙃
OOOHHH YEEEESS GRATITUDE

YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR BEING BORN
FOR OPENING YOUR EYES THIS MORNING
LOST A JOB? SOMEONE LOST THEIR HANDS!!!!!!!
LOST YOUR HANDS???? SOMEONE IS DYING OF HUNGER!!!!
DYING OF HUNGER???? SOMEONE EVEN HASN'T BEEN BORN
WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DIDN'T WANT TO BE BORN?????????1?1?1?
L I F E I S A G I F T ! ! !
 
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sealbabies

sealbabies

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Mar 27, 2022
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OOOHHH YEEEESS GRATITUDE

YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL FOR BEING BORN
FOR OPENING YOUR EYES THIS MORNING
LOST A JOB? SOMEONE LOST THEIR HANDS!!!!!!!
LOST YOUR HANDS???? SOMEONE IS DYING OF HUNGER!!!!
DYING OF HUNGER???? SOMEONE EVEN HASN'T BEEN BORN
WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU DIDN'T WANT TO BE BORN?????????1?1?1?
L I F E I S A G I F T ! ! !
This. Oh my friggin god.
All my life I have been told I am not practicing gratitude correctly and just be thankful I have things better than others, and the best part they end with -
"Things will get better if you will them to."
Fuck. That.
I probably sound like a broken record now, but since I found my partner dead I realize it doesn't matter what you "will" the world to do, it doesn't care.
And karma is a bitch because it doesn't exist.
Also comparing your problems to others never lines up and I have no control to usually help those people anyways, so why again should I be happy I'm not suffering as those poor shmucks over there are? Selfish thinking, if not heartless imo
-sorry for the language.
 
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houseofleaves

how's life treating ya?
Jan 14, 2022
633
comparing your problems to others never lines up and I have no control to usually help those people anyways,
so why again should I be happy I'm not suffering as those poor shmucks over there are? Selfish thinking, if not heartless imo
-sorry for the language.
+++++++++
 
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BigG91

I'd rather be homeless with good health.
Aug 21, 2021
191
there is a russian social media site called flymer,
it allows you to exchange anonymous messages with strangers and you can use a hashtag (like #tarot, #notowar, etc);
that day i wanted to chat with someone and choosed hashtag #psychological_help.

so, i received a message that said something like «a kind dude will listen to you and give advice». i, well, answered this dude something about having to CTB because i won't have a successful career (it's not only my opinion) and yadda yadda ya, AND — this dude straight up tells me that he struggled with his career too and that i should stop pitying myself.

the question is: CTBing is an unpleasant (or straight up painful) process which ends with — you guess it — death, so!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THESE NORMIES that are thinking that a person-that-is-going-to-ctb is pitying themself? i just… i don't get the logic behind it. pls haelp 😂
What did you mean to talk about by #psychological_help ?
You want someone to listen to your problems and accept that those problems are big enough to validate your decision to ctb ?
 
Chiisai

Chiisai

To infinity and beyond!
Sep 1, 2021
754
Dont hate them for their insensitivity. Instead, pity them for their ignorance.
 
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houseofleaves

houseofleaves

how's life treating ya?
Jan 14, 2022
633
What did you mean to talk about by #psychological_help?
You want someone to listen to your problems and accept that those problems are big enough to validate your decision to ctb?
for example — yeah, would have been cool, but what i actually wanted is someone to say, er… anything like "oh dude don't do that, ctbing is bad!" — that's all)
 
BigG91

BigG91

I'd rather be homeless with good health.
Aug 21, 2021
191
for example — yeah, would have been cool, but what i actually wanted is someone to say, er… anything like "oh dude don't do that, ctbing is bad!" — that's all)
Ohh alright ... I guess rude and ignorant behaviour is common on anonymous sites.
 
Maaizr

Maaizr

LIGHTSTEALER
Aug 2, 2021
150
normies are just prey now lmao smh
 
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veryhappyhuman

veryhappyhuman

Specialist
Aug 25, 2021
340
I feel like the reason is that a lot of normies confuse sadness with depression. If you're sad over something, you can get out of it by doing something happy i.e. their normie remedies work. But depression is something entirely different. It's like a sole-confinement prison you cant get out of.

It's like your doctor prescribes medicine for a normal stress headache, when the headache you have is actually because of a stage 4 brain tumor. From the doctor's view it's just a headache either way but only you know/can feel this is no normal headache.
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
1,608
I'm jealous of them tbh id rather go through life ignorant and happy than knowing all of this. It makes the journey easier and I would fear death less as I wouldn't be thinking of it like one point before age 23
 
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TakeMeBack07

TakeMeBack07

Failure
Jan 16, 2022
128
this whole thread is cringe
 
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TakeMeBack07

Failure
Jan 16, 2022
128
feels like some 16y/o who just discovered a different perspective a minority have type crap.
na the word normie and all of that just bugs the hell out of me
plus the idea of laughing and thinking you have a superior world view or perspective over others is cringe and repulsive
 
houseofleaves

houseofleaves

how's life treating ya?
Jan 14, 2022
633
feels like some 16y/o who just discovered a different perspective a minority have type crap.
na the word normie and all of that just bugs the hell out of me
plus the idea of laughing and thinking you have a superior world view or perspective over others is cringe and repulsive
it's not about «different perspective». when you tell someone who is about to ctb to «stop pitying themself», it's just unempathetic and rude.
and yeah — treating people with kindness EQUALS superior world view. change my mind.
 
JinZhin

JinZhin

we are in hell
Nov 2, 2021
187
That is sad but I think that bringing up suicide topics in certain situations is a bad idea and it is not to be expected you will be met with understanding as most people rarely think deeply about things related to their own life, life and mortality without repressing it.
 
houseofleaves

houseofleaves

how's life treating ya?
Jan 14, 2022
633
That is sad but I think that bringing up suicide topics in certain situations is a bad idea and it is not to be expected you will be met with understanding as most people rarely think deeply about things related to their own life, life and mortality without repressing it.
i didn't expect real understanding, of course)
 
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Ligottian

Enlightened
Dec 19, 2021
1,279
feels like some 16y/o who just discovered a different perspective a minority have type crap.
na the word normie and all of that just bugs the hell out of me
plus the idea of laughing and thinking you have a superior world view or perspective over others is cringe and repulsive
You sound like a typical normie.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,616
I feel like non suicidal people will never be able to comprehend what we are going through as they are not suicidal themselves. I would see it as a waste of time talking to people like that. Many non suicidal people live under a delusion that life is always worth living and they see suicidal thoughts as always being irrational, when in reality wanting suicide can be perfectly rational in a world as horrible as this. Toxic positivity and platitudes are annoying and do not help anything.
 
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