i hate myself

[ilk]

i cant even cry right now. i so badly want to hang myself already. i been staying up for days just thinking & working on my letter to my family. im losing myself more & more each day. depression you win. or whatever you is. some days it feels deeper than just being depressed & suicidal. like im losing my mind, like i dont belong here idk. i dont even know the point of this post. i just dont get it. i never will. what is wrong with me? why cant i be ok? i cant keep living this way. i cant change. i wont ever heal. why stay? just to suffer more? just to continue push my family away ? it pains me to but theres nothing they can do for me.

 

[fkyou]

Same it's painful I have to spare myself from the nonsense

 

[niki wonoto]

same here

- from Indonesia -

 

[unluckysadness]

Same. SI is so powerful. It doesn't make sense when life is over.

 

[fkyou]

Same. SI is so powerful. It doesn't make sense when life is over.

Literally.. it's so over but I'm still afraid of doing a simple procedure

 

[Carryline]

I hate myself even more

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I feel trapped in a body that won't die, like some kind of nightmare zombie hell. I really do think people such as yourself are clearly seeing reality.

 

[A_Spartan_Dead]

Life is ironic
SI stops us from freeing ourself of the suffering and disgusting circumstances like homelessness, SA, starvation, etc
Then it ages us until we die and SI is useless and we rot

 

[itsgone2]

It just sucks. Why can't we get out of this mess? None of us asked for it.
I didn't ask to be born so dumb, to just always make the wrong decision. Angry. Distant. Narcissistic. I want out. It's absolutely NEVER going to get better so what is the point??????

 

[Kazu Ha]

Same. I just feel empty, but SI keeps me from ending my suffering.
Nothing has changed over the years. Why should anything suddenly change now? I've tried therapy, but that didn't help either and just made me feel worthless.

 

[deadngoresurgery]

i cant even cry right now. i so badly want to hang myself already. i been staying up for days just thinking & working on my letter to my family. im losing myself more & more each day. depression you win. or whatever you is. some days it feels deeper than just being depressed & suicidal. like im losing my mind, like i dont belong here idk. i dont even know the point of this post. i just dont get it. i never will. what is wrong with me? why cant i be ok? i cant keep living this way. i cant change. i wont ever heal. why stay? just to suffer more? just to continue push my family away ? it pains me to but theres nothing they can do for me.

I hate my life so much. it was going alright, but now its just gone to shit. i know how you feel. i want to just lay down and never wake up again. but i also want a pretty suicide, as in, i want my brains to be scattered everywhere, my guts hanging out, scratches, cuts and bruises everywhere, an eye hanging out, all of that. i just am so obsessed with that.

 

[its_so_over]

i cant even cry right now. i so badly want to hang myself already. i been staying up for days just thinking & working on my letter to my family. im losing myself more & more each day. depression you win. or whatever you is. some days it feels deeper than just being depressed & suicidal. like im losing my mind, like i dont belong here idk. i dont even know the point of this post. i just dont get it. i never will. what is wrong with me? why cant i be ok? i cant keep living this way. i cant change. i wont ever heal. why stay? just to suffer more? just to continue push my family away ? it pains me to but theres nothing they can do for me.

I agree man i gotta get outta here

 

[catsalvation]

I feel the same way. I wish there was a button I could push to disappear immediately.

 

[gasforme]

I know it's not possible but SI is so selfish it doesn't understand that we live in a society and your life can be worth taking if you don't fit into that society.