I had a dream

[21stcenturycamus]

Last night I had an amazing dream and the whole day I have been a mess. Seeing myself so secure and so loved with my ex and friends reminded me how unhappy I am. I have been out all day, day-drinking and I really hate people. I have been reading all day and any interaction some men attempt makes me sick to my stomach. I don't know how I became this way. I had to part ways with an old friend this week because we had essentially different points of view when it came to the world. What they don't understand now though is that I am not bothered by being alone. I like being alone, I feel peaceful. One problem I have is that I cannot decide when to ctb.

 

[FuneralCry]

Sometimes dreams can be better than reality and it can be painful to wake up as it can remind of us of what we dont have. I also prefer to be alone, I cannot stand people. I wish you the best.