I guess I'm supposed to suffer.

[HeckingHecked]

This is again the closest attempt ever. Hanging just simply won't work for me, and I really tried to overcome the pain. I'm sure that if I had N, it wouldn't be an issue. I have zero desire to live.


My neck still feels like it's in the noose; like if I lean over, my arteries will be restricted. I also took 30 mg of melatonin, and I couldn't even sedate myself properly.

 

[Sherri]

Melatonin does nothing. I can take 5o and be awake all day. Don't you have access to Xanax or Valium? It takes away your anxiety.

 

[HeckingHecked]

Melatonin does nothing. I can take 5o and be awake all day. Don't you have access to Xanax or Valium? It takes away your anxiety.

I don't. Hell, I probably have it in my house, but it's locked up.

 

[Sherri]

Wish I could send you some but it's against site rules, see melatonin is an homeopathic medication. They are actually no studies to prove they work, and they are expensive as hell For other uses.

I don't. Hell, I probably have it in my house, but it's locked up.

Oh try atarax, it's an anti allergy pill but if you take 3 or 4 makes you sleepy.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are in this situation. Suicide really is so difficult. It must be awful to have a failed attempt. I can imagine it must be like being trapped feeling like you are unable to leave. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.