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aeri

aeri

𑁍ˡᵒᵛᵉ ˢᵗᵃʳᵛᵉᵈ ᵖʳⁱⁿᶜᵉˢˢ
Jan 29, 2020
135
Hi--
I know there are already a lot of thread like this one but i wanna vent uh-
My SN has been delivered today. I thought i would have some problems bc of the regulation, i believe it's not legal here (France).
I was feeling really relaxed and happy to know that i will finally ctb. Holding the bottle, oh my gosh it's at the same moment very scary and relaxing. I will finally find peace next week. I am happy. I really am happy. But i'm kinda sad for my friends too. I decided to stop talking to them bc they are pro life. But i know they still love me so much. I still love them too. But i am decided to die. I don't wanna live anymore, i am just a waste.

I'm happy i found out this forum. I haven't posted a lot but i read a lot. You guys are so precious, it's so bad that yall suffering so much. I love everyone of you even though you don't know who tf i am. All the support here~
 
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randomz

randomz

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Nov 4, 2019
395
Having your exit button with you is I imagine really relaxing. Maybe now that you know you can CTB at anytime, you can postpone your decision a little bit and try something to make yourself feel better?

Offtopic: I like your profile pic, and is your username by anychance connected to the trickstars?
 
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aeri

aeri

𑁍ˡᵒᵛᵉ ˢᵗᵃʳᵛᵉᵈ ᵖʳⁱⁿᶜᵉˢˢ
Jan 29, 2020
135
Having your exit button with you is I imagine really relaxing. Maybe now that you know you can CTB at anytime, you can postpone your decision a little bit and try something to make yourself feel better?

Offtopic: I like your profile pic, and is your username by anychance connected to the trickstars?

I believe i'll go buy alcohol and get drunk... I looove being drunk so much, and now that i'm sure i don't need my money anymore... I am so happy

No it's not, it's just a flower i like but omg i checked what you meant and too bad it's noy connected ! Such a beautiful yugi-oh card-- but i haven't watch it enough anyway--- ohhhh maybe i should watch yugi-oh during my last days to make'em go faster...
 
Ennuimortel

Ennuimortel

Être ou ne pas etre
Jan 7, 2020
31
Good news.
Have you antiemetic?
 
randomz

randomz

Specialist
Nov 4, 2019
395
I believe i'll go buy alcohol and get drunk... I looove being drunk so much, and now that i'm sure i don't need my money anymore... I am so happy

No it's not, it's just a flower i like but omg i checked what you meant and too bad it's noy connected ! Such a beautiful yugi-oh card-- but i haven't watch it enough anyway--- ohhhh maybe i should watch yugi-oh during my last days to make'em go faster...

Maybe you should watch it yeah. I recently reignited my yu-gi-oh craze and It's been one of the things that make me stay around. If I am not mistaken the trickstars are in the Vrains anime.
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
Congrats on getting SN
 
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