I finally blocked my ex back

[Charmander07]

Hello, I posted literally half an hour ago I keep deleting my posts cause of my ex saying things abt them.

Essentially she blocked me and keeps unblocking me to just tell me how bad I am let alone how much I'm trying for her. I really do love her and I know I did bad things but we both did, and never with bad intentions.

She's already blocked me but just in case she tries to be rude to me again, cause it's starting to get to me a bit despite how much it's helping with me realising that she definitely is not a nice gf.

I've finally picked up the courage to block her back so now I don't have to do deal with her anymore.

I'm so glad I did this now, I genuinely haven't felt so relieved in ages I've been able to escape this. I know she's not a bad person but we both needed to escape this, this would never have worked no matter how hard I tried, simply cause of who she is.
Sorry that I keep deleting posts I do t think people even get a chance to read them but I'll keep this one up here cause I feel proud of myself.

Is it wrong that I feel relieved, was this a good decision?

 

[darkandtwisty]

I don't know you but I'm proud of you! Blocking her means you're taking back the control! You recognize y'all are toxic together and you took a step to move forward with your life. It's going to be hard, I bet. But from what I read, you did the best thing for you.

 

[Charmander07]

I don't know you but I'm proud of you! Blocking her means you're taking back the control! You recognize y'all are toxic together and you took a step to move forward with your life. It's going to be hard, I bet. But from what I read, you did the best thing for you.

Thank you for replying it really feels good to get it out there, I do want you to know however that she isn't a bad person and is in fact just hurt.

We have both done such horrible things to each other and I thought she changed, especially cause I've started to change. But obviously she's still like that deep down and won't trust my change, which I don't blame her for, but I'm just so glad I made the right choice even if I wish things worked out.

 

[vyvanceandvodka]

I'm proud of you!!!!! It's never easy, but I'm proud of you. Don't feel bad for feeling relieved.

 

[darkandtwisty]

Thank you for replying it really feels good to get it out there, I do want you to know however that she isn't a bad person and is in fact just hurt.

We have both done such horrible things to each other and I thought she changed, especially cause I've started to change. But obviously she's still like that deep down and won't trust my change, which I don't blame her for, but I'm just so glad I made the right choice even if I wish things worked out.

I believe that sometimes hurt people will hurt people. Unintentionally most of the time. I know from personal experience. You can care for someone deeply but not be able to express it. Sometimes, the best thing you can do is love/care from a distance.

 

[dewdfish]

I'm proud of you, stranger

 

[Charmander07]

UPDATE:
She contacted me again and I asked her to apologise for the insults she said to me and the accusations she said to me. and she literally aired me without responding. I've blocked her on WhatsApp again, I'm genuinely so happy I escaped.

I understand how hurt she is I truly do but she fails to see just how much wrong she has done as well as me. I'm trying to atone for my past whereas she doesn't even mention it apart from the times I'm lit sitting there either breaking up or crying to her begging for something.

I do love her but if she can't even apologise, I don't know who she is. And tbh that rlly helped me realise just how much we shouldn't be together, and it should hopefully help me move on so much quicker.

 

[webb&flow]

This is a very good decision. A very very good one indeed. It's very good and very right that you feel relieved from it. You may feel some nagging sense of unresolvedness, but the relief and pleasure and peace of having your life being given more breath and spaciousness and air, from the lifting of this unneeded bother only holding back, is far greater than any underlying selfquestioning, that you may feel; the peace outweighs the attraction, in this quite well taken care of case, of yours.

You have earned this. You get to relax from this now. You don't have to deal with your ex now. You now are possessed with newfound freedom and energy and time and mind, to do with it anything that you so wish. An obstacle on your road has just been kicked off. You are free to proceed now . May your travels be relaxing and beautiful, and may they lead you to places of beauty and deep inner fulfillment; even if they cross through the rockinesses occasionally .

And Harpy seals are fucking adorable. Really nice profile picture.

May you continue to feel freed and full of breath, from such things that bother you . May you find similar ways and solutions out of all struggles you bear currently: one day ~