I felt so good in UNI achieving high grades man I messed up

[Journeytoletgo]

I can't get over it how I failed I wish I had CTB then

 

[symphony]

I relate so strongly. I used to do so well as a student - even though I was depressed, I was achieving at my potential and had a future ahead of me. Now that's all gone. Freshman year, I lived on the top story of a tall building with an external stairwell. I should have gone through with my plan to jump that one Wednesday evening when I had the chance. It would have prevented so much further suffering. But it turns out I'm a fucking coward.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I relate so strongly. I used to do so well as a student - even though I was depressed, I was achieving at my potential and had a future ahead of me. Now that's all gone. Freshman year, I lived on the top story of a tall building with an external stairwell. I should have gone through with my plan to jump that one Wednesday evening when I had the chance. It would have prevented so much further suffering. But it turns out I'm a fucking coward.

How are you doing now? Still depressed I presume. Did you go back to Uni or?

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

You can't go back study and try again?

 

[symphony]

How are you doing now? Still depressed I presume. Did you go back to Uni or?

Yeah... unfortunately the depression is worse than ever. I highly doubt I'm functional enough to handle school at this point. I'm currently trying to decide between going back next year or just getting a job... if I even live that long.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

You can't go back study and try again?

I been depressed for so long I don't even know if I can function in a classroom

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I been depressed for so long I don't even know if I can function in a classroom

I think it's worth a try. I was really at rock bottom but since I started taking medication it has helped me and I have been trying to turn my life around. I don't know if you have ever tried medication.

Yeah... unfortunately the depression is worse than ever. I highly doubt I'm functional enough to handle school at this point. I'm currently trying to decide between going back next year or just getting a job... if I even live that long.

I'm so sorry you feel this way :/ Either option is not bad, as long as you don't start getting stuck at home and doing nothing 24/7 for a long time. That just makes it worse, I speak from experience.