I feel violent about myself and I feel like burning myself. I don't want exist in this absolute hell. I am in extreme condition I feel blank......

[3rdworldsadness]

I am so overwhelmed by everything, people don't want to help or save, I don't blame them I was always the unwanted person. And saving a meal or asking for help is just a difficult work. When they have nothing and will gaslight you that your god wants you this way. A punishment for eternal.

My head is throbbing, I feel nauseous, my eyes are watery and I feel blank. I just want to burn myself so I can completely erase myself from this horror and forgotten like never existed. People are always there to judge my life. But I can't just. People are constantly mocking when they can't pass see all of this. I just want to kill myself with all the methods. I don't care about it its painless or not but the only thing I haven't done is because if I turn into Vegetable state people will throw shoe at me and likely bury me alive they don't have the money to keep a vegetable state person to alive they don't have anything. I will rot in the dirty street.
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[bl33ding_heart]

I'm sorry that you have suffered so much. No one was there for me in the moments I most required emotional support, I understand how you feel. Just know that we are all wishing the best for you, and we really don't want you to suffer. God bless.

 

[inneedrelief]

I thought about doing this method too