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Ghostly

Ghostly

Student
Nov 21, 2020
148
i just wnat to jump in front of train right now i live near a train station might jump in front of there soon in like an hour i just cant take this anymore
 
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Sherri

Sherri

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Sep 28, 2020
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Hi Ghostly, sorry your in so much pain. I respect your decision, but have you thought about a painless way to go at least?
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,561
Ugh same, I don't plan to ctb soon tho because I have a pet:// do you for real plan to ctb now?:(
 
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D11FER

Lost and Lonely
May 23, 2020
140
I once sat at a level crossing for 4 hours working out the best way to CTB and then thought about the poor train driver and the people tasked to picking up my body parts.
chose to a different pathway (SN)
I think most of us on here feel ugly and shit! I might even add unwanted and unloveable. I hope you find peace whatever the pathway you decide to go with :) x
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
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I'm sorry you're feeling like that :aw: I would be way too scared to jump in front of a train and honestly, I think it's not the best method. I hope you find some peace, what ever you decide to do. :heart::hug:
 
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WornOutLife

WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,183
I think that method is too painful and risky. What happen to the gun method? Sounded more doable!
 
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Sherri

Sherri

Archangel
Sep 28, 2020
13,791
Well if that's the way you decide I respect and wish you well, one thing for sure is, you are brave. Hugs
 
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Ghostly

Ghostly

Student
Nov 21, 2020
148
Ugh same, I don't plan to ctb soon tho because I have a pet:// do you for real plan to ctb now?:(
Just tried to hang myself but it didn't as the ligature was to weak
I think that method is too painful and risky. What happen to the gun method? Sounded more doable!
I have a roommate so I'm scared of them seeing my corpse from a gun shot to the head
 
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woknows

Experienced
Dec 12, 2020
264
Hi Ghostly, sorry your in so much pain. I respect your decision, but have you thought about a painless way to go at least?

If you put your neck on tracks in front of a fast train, it will be pretty fast and reliable. I suppose you might feel a moment of pain and be gone. Still, he should consider the choice itself.

OP why do you think you are ugly? Is the reason the inability to find a suitable loved one?
I hope you find a way out of the hole you are in. If the hole is too deep, good luck with whatever decision you are about to make.
 
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newave3

newave3

I want out
Nov 21, 2020
2,802
First off dude, you ain't ugly. If that's you in the avatar you look like a young Sean Penn. Actually you're better looking than him and he went on to be a big star and married Madonna.
We all have big problems. That's why we are on this site. If you haven't already, get some good help before you ctb.
 
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tpurced

tpurced

Just passing through this world
Oct 23, 2020
20
If that's your decision I respect it. Just please make sure you've got some kind of plan. You seem very brave. If you go through with it I wish you well and that your journey is peaceful- otherwise you're always welcome back here. :heart:

Hugs.
 

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