I feel so trapped

[FireFox]

Right now I feel so trapped in this hole I can't get out. All I want is for this to end . I feeling like I am sinking and can't get above surface level . All I want is to sleep and never want to wake up .

I don't feel young anymore (23) and I have ruined my entire life.
I actually ruined my life .
I see no relief from my life regrets
Nothing feels pleasurable and enjoyable anymore
All I can think of overdosing on all the medication in the house or throwing myself in deep lake as I can't swim.
There really is nothing for me in this world and my life really is over.

 

[4eyebiped]

How exactly did you ruin your life? What was this event(s) that led to all these regrets so early on? If you don't feel like telling the details here, you can always PM me.

 

[Kumachan]

every time i see your posts it reminds me of my wife - i made her sad, made her cry so many times... But every time she cried she looked SO CUTE, her lower lip would tremble when she was about to cry...