Venting I feel so old

[AnnonyBox]

I know I have no right to feel this old, but I do. I miss the 90's and early 00's. The world has changed so much. I always thought I was particularly intelligent when it came to technology, but technology has outpaced me. I can't keep up and learn. People are so much more cruel and self-centered than they have any right to be. Empathy is dead. I feel so old. I wish death would come quicker.

 

[Celerity]

I know I have no right to feel this old, but I do. I miss the 90's and early 00's. The world has changed so much. I always thought I was particularly intelligent when it came to technology, but technology has outpaced me. I can't keep up and learn. People are so much more cruel and self-centered than they have any right to be. Empathy is dead. I feel so old. I wish death would come quicker.

28 here. I agree. I don't like this brave new world that has been unleashed. I remember when people considered the internet to be this new, exciting thing that would change the world. It certainly did. I guess only time will tell whether it changes it for the better. Not looking great so far.

 

[ClownMe]

I guess only time will tell whether it changes it for the better. Not looking great so far.

Unless we count people doing embarrassing dances on tiktok to gain a following as changing the world for the better, then no.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Living in the past is all that matters on the road to death.

 

[FuneralCry]

It can be painful to reflect on the past and miss it, I get that. This world certainly is cruel and people are selfish. I personally cannot wait to escape it.

 

[The Lonely]

I don't see things getting better at anywhere I look ….
Music, movies, politics…
Society in general

Then I realize: oh, right… I can't catch up with technology and society trends…

But that is when I look inside myself and realize: I don't even Want to(…) And this delay is only growing

 

[Lady black]

I really don't like the time we are living in now

 

[Symbiote]

You know you're old when you're coworker was being born, and you were in your 3rd year of high school. You know you're old when Pogs, JNCO jeans, and chokers were a fad.

 

[Anonymous_A]

Same.. Even tho I'm 'only' 24.

Life until 2019 was legit good.
Was social, had the time of my life at uni. Festivals, holidays abroad, was always one of the first to be invited to social outings etc.
Was even about to pack up myself and head to Ibiza to work for summer.

Now I just spend my time reminiscing back on those times.
But I'd legit get sad at the fact that life won't ever be like that again.
Even if I try get better and move away from the want of killing myself. I'm a grown up now, everyone I knew has grown up, sorted their life's out and generally moving on with life

The past two years life has completely fuckn flipped. I've legit lost myself, along with losing so much time that I won't ever get back and can't repeat.
Feeling like a kid that's grown up too fast and that's ran out of time.

Man, When the time comes when I finally balls up to ctb, I hope once I die, I'll fall into a dream state and just reminisce all the good times, one last time.
(I won't wake up feeling sad like I do these days whenever I dream about the past lol)

 

[BobMorane]

Same.. Even tho I'm 'only' 24.

Life until 2019 was legit good.
Was social, had the time of my life at uni. Festivals, holidays abroad, was always one of the first to be invited to social outings etc.
Was even about to pack up myself and head to Ibiza to work for summer.

Now I just spend my time reminiscing back on those times.
But I'd legit get sad at the fact that life won't ever be like that again.
Even if I try get better and move away from the want of killing myself. I'm a grown up now, everyone I knew has grown up, sorted their life's out and generally moving on with life

The past two years life has completely fuckn flipped. I've legit lost myself, along with losing so much time that I won't ever get back and can't repeat.
Feeling like a kid that's grown up too fast and that's ran out of time.

Man, When the time comes when I finally balls up to ctb, I hope once I die, I'll fall into a dream state and just reminisce all the good times, one last time.
(I won't wake up feeling sad like I do these days whenever I dream about the past lol)

@Anonymous_A I know its none of my busniess but can I know what happened ? Feel like I have the same story : my life was similar to your until I did some acid and got diagnosed shizoaffective :/

 

[BrokenArrow]

my life was similar to your until I did some acid and got diagnosed shizoaffective :/

Oh shit, I did acid the other day. I did it twice before but I had benzos to bring me down when it got too intense.

The other day I had no benzos and had a bad trip. I'm fine now but it was really intense, I ended up just curling up in the foetal position waiting for it to end lool.

How much did you do to get diagnosed shizoaffective?

 

[suisuiforum]

I feel old too, and I wish I could stop the slow but inevitable physical decay that accompanies time's arrow. While growing older means that you're marching towards death, I could do without the loss of vitality and decline in health.

 

[Mr2005]

I know I have no right to feel this old, but I do. I miss the 90's and early 00's. The world has changed so much. I always thought I was particularly intelligent when it came to technology, but technology has outpaced me. I can't keep up and learn. People are so much more cruel and self-centered than they have any right to be. Empathy is dead. I feel so old. I wish death would come quicker.

Man do I feel this. I'm guessing you're around the same age as me. If you're younger I'll feel even older. This isn't the world I grew up in, I have no place in it. Technology has gone so fast I don't know how anyone keeps up with it. There was no warning that in a little over a decade it would completely take over the world. We didn't learn about file sizes in school. I've missed the boat and been left behind

 

[BobMorane]

Oh shit, I did acid the other day. I did it twice before but I had benzos to bring me down when it got too intense.

The other day I had no benzos and had a bad trip. I'm fine now but it was really intense, I ended up just curling up in the foetal position waiting for it to end lool.

How much did you do to get diagnosed shizoaffective?

I did 3 times one full tab (so maybe 200 micrograms each) over the course of 6 weeks so one tab each 2 weeks. Its not even a lot Im just not lucky with prédispositions. And you, what do you got?

 

[Munder]

This world and society has changed drastically in the past 20's. I dont think it is abnormal to get dizzy from all the changes. I wish you love and kindness and hope you find a place in this crazy messed up world

 

[BrokenArrow]

I did 3 times one full tab (so maybe 200 micrograms each) over the course of 6 weeks so one tab each 2 weeks. Its not even a lot Im just not lucky with prédispositions. And you, what do you got?

Yeah, acid's so strong I can see why it triggers people's predispositions to mental illnesses.

I only did 130 micrograms the other day and that was more than enough.

A few months ago I did about 220, but I was on Xanax at the time, which made it easy to handle.

Sometimes people 'come back' from bad acid trips months or years afterwards. You might find your disorder lessens or clears up in the future...?