i feel so lonely

[angeldevil]

maybe its just because i'm different in many ways or because i'm autistic but i don't really have a lot of friends or people to talk. or i have actually none who i talk to everyday and i could tell about my struggles, but at least i have this place where i can share this.

the feeling got stronger when my most likely only friend stopped hanging out with me so much and stopped talking to me over text. i know that she's the complete opposite of me and has a lot of friends and good skills with people, but it just hurts and feels like she's forgetting me. i'm not mad at all because she's making other friends and preferring to hang out with them, i'm just sad about it.

i wish i was more social so i could make new friends, but i feel like that will never happen. i feel like the lack of my social skills is because of bullying in school for 5 years and now i'm just scared that people will avoid me or ignore me if i talk to them. like i'm not good enough for anybody to be friends with.

when i do have a friend i'm very clingy to them and want to text them as much as i can and hang out with them because i love people's company if i'm comfortable with that person and know them well. and it just makes this hurt so much more because i have nobody do that to me. maybe it's just too much to ask for.

 

[enough of this]

maybe its just because i'm different in many ways or because i'm autistic but i don't really have a lot of friends or people to talk. or i have actually none who i talk to everyday and i could tell about my struggles, but at least i have this place where i can share this.

the feeling got stronger when my most likely only friend stopped hanging out with me so much and stopped talking to me over text. i know that she's the complete opposite of me and has a lot of friends and good skills with people, but it just hurts and feels like she's forgetting me. i'm not mad at all because she's making other friends and preferring to hang out with them, i'm just sad about it.

i wish i was more social so i could make new friends, but i feel like that will never happen. i feel like the lack of my social skills is because of bullying in school for 5 years and now i'm just scared that people will avoid me or ignore me if i talk to them. like i'm not good enough for anybody to be friends with.

when i do have a friend i'm very clingy to them and want to text them as much as i can and hang out with them because i love people's company if i'm comfortable with that person and know them well. and it just makes this hurt so much more because i have nobody do that to me. maybe it's just too much to ask for.

It's not too much to ask. You're welcome to talk with me. I would like hearing from you.

 

[am1485]

Yeah I understand where you're coming from. I don't have very many friends either and my lack of social skills has hurt me throughout my life.

I'd love to be friends with you though. You can DM me if you want if you want someone to talk to. :)

 

[Misfit72]

I have felt at my loneliest when I am other people, but I relate to a lot of what you say. I have never been formally diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum, and even if I were now, I don't think people would treat me with any more kindness or understanding.

By the way, this is the Recovery section, so in future, please use this section - https://sanctioned-suicide.net/forums/2/

 

[mediocre]

I know what you mean!
this is exactly what happened to me.. I have Aspergers/autism to.. when I was a teenager I stopped talking to everyone.. even my cousin who I was very close to.. now many years later I'm completely alone and I don't have any friends at all. I could die now and only
My mother and sisters would know about it

It can be very hard.. I have that crippling fear to.. of talking to people because im
Afraid that won't like me or make fun of me for my voice or how I look.
It's a terrible feeling not having anyone to turn to

I am so sorry your friend stopped talking to you. I really hope you can make
New friends to.. people here are very nice