I feel like I'm being tortured

[Laurel352018]

hi, I just joined a couple of days ago, my boyfriend took his own life 5 weeks ago today and I haven't been the same ever since, I just feel like dead on the inside all the time except for when I'm asleep, I just want out of this miserable world, he was so young, we were together for 6 years and have a 3 year old together, I just know he was my soul mate, this is the worst pain I have ever felt in my life, I already had depression to begin with but this just made it a lot worse, someone please tell me there is an easy way out and that we will see our loved ones again when we leave this awful world, this is torture for me, what have I done to deserve to be put through this?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in such an unbearable situation, I can imagine that it must be so painful and devastating. None of us deserve the suffering that this life gives us, life is so cruel and unfair and to me it is all very sad.

I wish I could say that there is an easy way out but in reality suicide is so difficult, more than anything I wish that it is easier to leave all the pain behind, but I feel so trapped in this world. I do not believe in any afterlife, I wish for nothingness, but I hope you find what you are looking for and you find relief from your suffering. I wish you the best

 

[Rational man]

Its not.your fault. Bad things happen. There's no easy way out. Please consider reaching out for help.