Venting I feel like a ball of yarn unraveling

[Zzzzz]

I hate having these feelings every day! I have virtually no hope of recovering tho I am trying. My life circumstances don't feel stable. I feel like my family views me as burden and an obligation and can kick me out at any time. My greatest fear is to live a life of misery and unhappiness and not be able to overcome SI. I would rather a mugger shoot me or even stab me than I live a life like this ! But SI has been too powerful for me to conquer so far! It feels like I'm being emotionally tortured, not deliberately by any person. But just unbearable emotions constantly and I do NOT want to live one more day feeling this way! Medication no help. Talk therapy hasn't helped. Ketamine hasn't helped. Nothing has helped!

 

[LifeIsAChore11]

I'd say nasty families are the #1 cause of suicides.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that this life can be unbearable when you suffer so much and I understand being desperate to leave this world. To me the thought of existing until old age is so horrifying. I really wish that it is easier to leave all the pain behind and it hurts me that suicide is this difficult. I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I can imagine that it must be such a hopeless feeling to have tried everything and for nothing to have helped.

 

[hopelessdreams]

i can relate to you on the family part. first i could hide my sadness with academic succes, but lately they've been able to see right through my act and don't trust me anymore. families are fucked up and can be a big reason as to why someone wants to leave this world. i'm one of them, and maybe you are too..

 

[Hollowman]

Nothing has helped me either some of us are beyond it. It SUCKS