Almost my entire adult life I've lacked motivation to do anything with my life. I have a lot of interests that can potentially turn into a career path, but I don't have the motivation to work towards anything. I can be so much and I'm wasting my potential entirely.
I live on my own, but need financial help from my mom to achieve that. She's very toxic and she would never accept me being a lesbian, which is why I never came out to her. Since I'm 25, I'm scared she'll eventually ask me about it and it terrifies me. Everything I do I always think it will eventually be ruined by her completely and she'll think how she's helping me after destroying my only happiness in life.
I want to move to a different country where I can be myself, but I also need her financial help to be able to do that. It would take me literally 10 years to save on my own without spending on anything and if anything fails(I get fired) I'd be right back. Her moods and spending habits are very unpredictable and I would feel 0 security doing that with her help.
I don't see any way out of this and I'm starting to think some people just aren't meant to be happy.
I live on my own, but need financial help from my mom to achieve that. She's very toxic and she would never accept me being a lesbian, which is why I never came out to her. Since I'm 25, I'm scared she'll eventually ask me about it and it terrifies me. Everything I do I always think it will eventually be ruined by her completely and she'll think how she's helping me after destroying my only happiness in life.
I want to move to a different country where I can be myself, but I also need her financial help to be able to do that. It would take me literally 10 years to save on my own without spending on anything and if anything fails(I get fired) I'd be right back. Her moods and spending habits are very unpredictable and I would feel 0 security doing that with her help.
I don't see any way out of this and I'm starting to think some people just aren't meant to be happy.
