Venting I feel deep, horrifying regret for having wasted large amounts of other people's time.

[VoidDesirer22]

When I was still naive and hadn't yet assimilated to how miserable my brain inherently is, I would try to "get close" to people.

There was one person in particular whose career I think I impacted. I took up their time to go on holiday with them, and to claim that this fulls me with ordinary grief and regret is a huge understatement. I can only describe it as the more extreme forms of misery from someone who absolutely never had a chance at being happy.

I want nothing more than to enter non-existence and become a fading memory. The help provided by this forum is profoundly beautiful.

Thank you for reading.

 

[FuneralCry]

Living is very painful, after all there is no escape from our thoughts and ourselves apart from death. Regret can be a dreadful emotion to have to deal with. I look forward to death, as death is the end to everything. It is a comforting feeling knowing the suffering will end. I hope you find peace.

 

[LoneMisery]

Its all i ever feel is just a waste of time and that people are just being nice to me for the sake of being nice. Im hoping that not much longer ill be able to overcome my fear of death and instinct of living. Ive already started looking for long lost friends to say a goodbye to