Today I tried FSH. I was planning it for months. I lurked here and other places for ideas and statistics and videos on ideas. Formulated my method and planned the date. But I failed. Unlike many videos I've seen, I did not pass out and I could still breath. I started crying because I'm so unlucky of course even this goes wrong in some way (I don't understand why yet). Because I was still conscious after a bit and could breath, I figured just hanging there wouldn't work out the way I was hoping (and at worse, give me some damage somewhere only for people to find me and send me to inpatient) and I was able to untie myself and get down.
IDK. I'm very upset. It feels like I wasted the last few months of my life, thinking I was going to die soon made me not do much of anything. Now I gotta play catch up with life until another time (I dont know the next time I will be alone) or method presents itself again.
IDK. I'm very upset. It feels like I wasted the last few months of my life, thinking I was going to die soon made me not do much of anything. Now I gotta play catch up with life until another time (I dont know the next time I will be alone) or method presents itself again.
