LonelyPrince
Rotten to the Core
- Dec 12, 2025
- 270
Everything I do I quit it.
School
Jobs
Anything.
I cannot handle stress and end up shutting down and harming myself, sometimes with the intent of not waking up.
Today I was left alone for most of my shift and I'm still fairly new so I started having issues.
My managers were surprised at the fact that I struggled while all alone during rush hours in a restaurant. They even got mad at me.
I think I also didn't take my meds today, otherwise I can't explain why everything was so unbearable.
I was stuck with a shitty coworker and abandoned to do everything by myself. I started to silently cry.
I also started questioning if I should keep the job or not. If I quit this job too it means I'm unable to work anywhere.
I've already quit two other ones: one was because they treated me like dogshit and insulted me, while the other I was too physically weak to handle.
I was planning to stay for a couple of months but I clearly cannot handle some things by myself and they expect me to do so with no problems, as if I was an average person and not a mentally retarded suicidal freak.
All I could think about was killing myself. Maybe put a plastic bag over my head and tape my neck so I can't remove it. Maybe try to hang myself again.
I honestly don't see a way out. I can't transition as long as I live under my parents roof so I need an income to leave and live on my own.
But if I can't fucking handle a job due to my condition then how can I?!
I don't want to be stuck in an abusive household.
I have no one to help me. NO ONE.
Suicide seems like the easiest option.
These meds canf fix my life. The people I know don't care. I have no way out and depression destroyed everything.
Today I'll write my suicide note and try to get drunk so I don't think
School
Jobs
Anything.
I cannot handle stress and end up shutting down and harming myself, sometimes with the intent of not waking up.
Today I was left alone for most of my shift and I'm still fairly new so I started having issues.
My managers were surprised at the fact that I struggled while all alone during rush hours in a restaurant. They even got mad at me.
I think I also didn't take my meds today, otherwise I can't explain why everything was so unbearable.
I was stuck with a shitty coworker and abandoned to do everything by myself. I started to silently cry.
I also started questioning if I should keep the job or not. If I quit this job too it means I'm unable to work anywhere.
I've already quit two other ones: one was because they treated me like dogshit and insulted me, while the other I was too physically weak to handle.
I was planning to stay for a couple of months but I clearly cannot handle some things by myself and they expect me to do so with no problems, as if I was an average person and not a mentally retarded suicidal freak.
All I could think about was killing myself. Maybe put a plastic bag over my head and tape my neck so I can't remove it. Maybe try to hang myself again.
I honestly don't see a way out. I can't transition as long as I live under my parents roof so I need an income to leave and live on my own.
But if I can't fucking handle a job due to my condition then how can I?!
I don't want to be stuck in an abusive household.
I have no one to help me. NO ONE.
Suicide seems like the easiest option.
These meds canf fix my life. The people I know don't care. I have no way out and depression destroyed everything.
Today I'll write my suicide note and try to get drunk so I don't think
