Venting I don't know why I bother

[☆AwaitingEntropy☆]

Sigh... I had a good month where suicide wasn't my first immediate choice, but now it's back at the forefront.

Long story short, rent everywhere is too expensive, and the place my roommate and I were going rent from isn't going to be available after all. It's too late to find another cheap place with the funds we have and only a month away, so now I probably have to move back in with family.

I was prepared for something to go wrong, so I'm not surprised, but it's still unfortunate. I'm just done with it all. I hate it when life reaffirms my decision to not hope for anything. Constantly bracing yourself for the worst is a dreadful way to live, and yet it proves me right all the time.

 

[FuneralCry]

This life really is so disappointing and to me life just seems to be endless suffering and problems. I think having hope often just leads to more misery which is why i'm glad that I have none. I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I know that it's dreadful when things just get worse. Best wishes.