suncide10
Student
- Apr 27, 2026
- 104
I heard that my goverment might introduce a law under which people aged 21 and over will be eligeble for mobilisation. It means there will be a chance for me to be kidnapped by some evil people in masks, and they will send me to war. I'll have to be extra careful on the streets, and try not to leave my house as much as possible. I'm 21 and a lot of my peers have left the country or will do it soon until it's too late. I've never wanted to leave because the thought of starting a new life from zero feels stressful. I don't have anyone who could help me. I mean I do have one old friend who left and established well in another country, I've known him since I was born, but our relationship slowly faded in the last years due to various reasons, and I've had some unpleasent experiences where I'd be ghosted/abondoned by him so it's hard for me trust.
I feel like I'm forced to make a decision to either die/stay suffering or leave and try to build a new life in another country. I don't like either of these options. I'm not ready to die now and I definetely not ready to make such big changes in my life because I've spent most of my life at home so going to another country alone feels scary, and my mental health makes it all worse.
I don't know what to do, there's no rush, I have time until August 2027 (my bday) but still I feel under pressure by these news. And I think I should make the decision soon to decide whether I should start saving up money and getting ready to leave.
I feel like I'm forced to make a decision to either die/stay suffering or leave and try to build a new life in another country. I don't like either of these options. I'm not ready to die now and I definetely not ready to make such big changes in my life because I've spent most of my life at home so going to another country alone feels scary, and my mental health makes it all worse.
I don't know what to do, there's no rush, I have time until August 2027 (my bday) but still I feel under pressure by these news. And I think I should make the decision soon to decide whether I should start saving up money and getting ready to leave.
