I don't know what to call this period of my life.

[itsallover]

I have recently started feeling better physically and I swore that was all I wanted and then I would go back to living again, but that long period of torture has left me very tired emotionally. I feel like I don't have anything left in me to start over even the tiny baby steps. I have stopped depending on medication so much to make it through the day, though I can't seem to cut it off entirely. I really feel like I need to go into a psychiatric ward where they can help fix me up but I don't know if that will even help. Is there anybody out there who has made some sort of progress like I have physically, but after a long time of psychological torture feels beaten already?

 

[CommitSudoku]

I don't fit who you're looking for but wanted to say good job on the progress you have made and I hope you're able to continue the trend.

 

[StrawberryGuy]

In a place where there are many posts from people looking for CTB methods, it is very satisfying for me to read posts like yours. I hope you keep progressing not only physically but mentally as well. Psychological pain for me is not something we can forget about or let go of, it will always be there waiting for some moment to rekindle. I'm learning to live with it and with each passing day I can control myself more. I refused to take medication, visit psychiatrists or anything else because I want to solve my problems myself. Some may think it's incorrect but that's how I learned to do things.

Hope you keep making progress, friend.

 

[waitingforrest]

I would also feel drained try to get better again. Even the tiny steps feel like climbing mountains.

I feel comforted that I am not the only one that keeps feeling the need to go to a ward. Even though, for me, I know it won't make me better.

Even a long time of feeling horrible can wear away a person's motivation. I feel like a husk of what I once was, like the world has lost its color.

It must be a very complicated feeling for you. Still feeling worn out when you swore to go back to living.

I hope that everything goes okay for you, and remember to not push yourself to hard.