I don't know what this post is about

[Postone]

Ok,if you look at my past posts,I should already have died 2 years ago.I apologize for that.In my defence i did seriously attempt suicide twice,it just didn't work out.But really, I shouldn't have died back then,it would be a terrible thing to do that to my Grandma.But once she passes,I'll be as free as a butterfly to leave this world.

I generally check the forum from time to time,but I've been a lurker from the ancient times of the subreddit,before this forum was even created.That subreddit got banned and then the owners created this forum,or at least I suppose thats what happened,since the forum appeared immediately after the subreddit ban.That was probably 2016,but I'm not sure.I became more active for some months around 2018,back then i tried to get N from the old supplier,A.Now we have someone named D i suppose.

So far I recgnized 2 users from the time I was more active,@RainAndSadness and @NoLifeNoPain.And they must really like their profile pics because they never changed it lol.Anyways, as the title says this thread has no point,I'm not ready to kill myself yet,but its time to keep an eye on the N news.

 

[FuneralCry]

You dont need to apologize for not dying. Suicide really is so difficult after all, and there is no obligation to leave this world. I can imagine that it must have been awful to go through failed attempts. It is understandable wanting to wait until family members have gone before leaving. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.