Venting I don't know how much longer I can go without ctbing

[JustABunchOfAtoms]

I've been in hospistal since July. The minimum time I will be saying in hospital is 6 more weeks. Then once I leave I will have to wait on my SN. It's so hard not having any way to ctb. Every time someone ctb I'm so jealous

 

[WornOutLife]

Been in hospital for 2 months so I understand what you're going through.
Are you going to be "free" when you get out? Because in my case, I was forced to live with my parents or go to a psych ward (of course I chose my parents) and this is a prison because I'm monitored 24/7. Can't even get alcohol so getting SN is impossible.

 

[JustABunchOfAtoms]

I'm going to move to assisted living.
My consultant said that it was approximately 6 weeks but she couldn't really give me a time.
I feel like I'm stuck here forever and ever and ever.
Maybe I'll be here when the sun becomes a red giant

 

[umbrellaphone]

I feel you. Reading goodbye threads always causes me mixed feelings. I'm happy because they finally find peace they've been yearning for, sad because the thread is going to be my last interaction with them, and a little jealous because they have the courage I don't.

 

[NodusTollens]

I feel you. Reading goodbye threads always causes me mixed feelings. I'm happy because they finally find peace they've been yearning for, sad because the thread is going to be my last interaction with them, and a little jealous because they have the courage I don't.

Couldn't have said it better myself. I feel the same.



Sorry to hear about what you've been going through OP, I genuinely hope you find the peace you're looking for.

 

[AutoTap]

I feel you. Reading goodbye threads always causes me mixed feelings. I'm happy because they finally find peace they've been yearning for, sad because the thread is going to be my last interaction with them, and a little jealous because they have the courage I don't.

Yep describes it perfectly for me.

 

[virginiawoolf86]

Yep describes it perfectly for me.

Same here also.

Although, I'm starting to come to terms with things.