I don't gonna look for help anymore

[Akerblad]

I don't have energy to write in English so I will write in Spanish

He estado buscando ayuda por un tiempo, pero definitivamente ya me canse, me esforcé mucho y puse bastante de mi parte, pero al final fue una búsqueda inútil, un desperdició de dinero y tiempo, por mucho que puse de mi parte no conseguí nada, incluso aunque me repetí a mi mismo que quizá valga la pena vivir, sencillamente el mundo y la vida se han encargado de demostrar que estaba equivocado, no voy a conseguir la ayuda que necesito, y ya estoy demasiado agotado y mis síntomas simplemente se han vuelto insoportables, ya no soporto la fatiga y la falta de ganas, ya estoy cansado de que me cueste hacer hasta las tareas más básicas, y en general estoy harto de todo, evidentemente no voy a conseguir nada y sencillamente no quiero ya mas aguantar esta agonía y este dolor que cada día se hace mas grande, al final toda ayuda fue poca y todo fue inútil.

 

[CommitSudoku]

I apologize I don't speak Spanish and Google translate would butcher my words. That's what I used as well so sorry if I misunderstood anything. I'm also at a point where exhaustion and lack of desire seem to be all that's left aside from depression/anxiety. I'm not sure I've looked for help properly so I applaud that you did such though it's unfortunate it was to no avail. I'm sorry that your pain/agony gets worse every day. I know what that's like and I really don't see how it's worth it. It's just so hard to leave. I wish you the best whatever you decide to do going forward and hope someday you can get some much-deserved rest. And even if it was in vain I think it's amazing you did put in an effort and sought out help, doing so can be so very hard.

 

[Akerblad]

google translated version for those who don't speak spanish

I've been looking for help for a while, but I'm definitely tired, I tried a lot and put a lot of my part, but in the end it was a useless search, a waste of money and time, as much as I put in I didn't get anything, even though i told myself that maybe life is worth living, the world and life have simply proven me wrong, i'm not going to get the help i need, and i'm already too exhausted and my symptoms have just turned unbearable, I can no longer stand the fatigue and the lack of desire, I am already tired of the fact that it is difficult for me to do even the most basic tasks, and in general I am fed up with everything, obviously I am not going to achieve anything and I simply do not want to put up with this agony anymore and this pain that gets bigger every day, in the end all help was little and everything was useless.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that things are so hopeless, I understand that it is hard to carry on when you are tired of everything and you are suffering so much. I have also had enough of living. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[member1]

Similar condition, locked up like a prison.