I don't feel like I deserve to feel like this

[ghostunderthelight]

I've been blessed to live a pretty privileged life. My family has never been in need of money, my parents haven't, to my knowledge, been abusive. In fact, they completely go against the Asian parent stereotype and only ask that I try my best in whatever I accomplish, perhaps because stress pushed my brother under.
I have a group of friends who are genuinely nice to me, who care about me and try to help me. By all measures, I am extremely lucky and privileged.

It's due to this that I don't feel like I should be feeling suicidal. I know people who have gone through so much more and came out the other side, whereas here I am, with an upbringing that was perfectly normal, still feeling suicidal. I constantly feel like these feelings are just me seeking attention, even though rationally I know they aren't. I have no real reason to ctb besides my mental illnesses.

 

[Darkover]

feeling tortured by the universe health problem ruin everything

 

[whywere]

Interesting! Now I was 100% the opposite of you in all most everything. Now, have said this many times here before, I have had 2 attempts and HUGE mental health issues.

In my cheesy opinion, there are so many, key word: many, different aspects/issues etc, that can and will be involved with mental health. with the "one size fits all" approach/thinking, heck anything is to be thrown out the window and start from scratch with each and every person. No one has the same chemical makeup in one's brain, living situations, heck there in again anything.

Like me after the 2nd attempt with lots of back n forth one thing in me is that my brain chemical situation is messed up and taking a SSRI helps.

You are among friends here and that is what is important. People who understand.

Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

The way I see it, we all have the right to exit this world at a time of our own choosing and we do not need to justify our reasons for leaving, it is your life and your decision. I feel like in my case, I would be suicidal no matter what happened, it is simply just the way I am. You do not need a reason for feeling that way, it is simply just the way you feel. I wish you the best in whatever happens.