Venting i don’t even know what i’m feeling

[deletedaccount30982]

i don't know what i'm feeling right now. i feel like everyone hates me and it's very possible that they do but i don't know. i feel like i really really fucked something up and that my boyfriend doesn't love me and i'm failing school and everything feels like it's going wrong right now. this is the bullshit school does to me. every day that i have school my mood is shit by the end of the day. this doesn't happen nearly as often on days i don't have class. this is why i don't want to be here anymore. i want to be done with school

 

[suicidesheep31]

What happens at school that you feel shittty after? Do you find difficulties to discuss with your classmates or else?
What do you feel in your body? Sometimes, it helps to know the emotion we feel.
What could you have fucking up? Share your intuition please

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are in this situation. It sounds stressful what you are going through. I know that it can be dreadful when things just get worse. I wish you the best.

 

[Fairyy]

I'm really sorry that you're going through this right now. I also constantly think that everyone hates me. My girlfriend hates me and wants me to leave. It's a terrible feeling.
As a child in school days I was an outcast and I am still surprised how I was able to survive all this. I sincerely hope that you will feel better, at least a little. You're not alone.

 

[veryhappyhuman]

I don't want to minimize your struggle. But as someone who also used to be so stressed out with the day to day happenings at school/uni, I now know what happened at school didn't fucking matter in any way at all in life, ultimately. I've honestly seen people who failed, people who barely passed out, people who dropped out for financial / health reasons all make it in life later. In fact, in one of my past jobs, a guy who did GREAT academically was literally working at the same job as one who wasted all his time in school and barely eked out a passing grade. On the flip side, I've seen people who sailed through academics with honors end up completely wrecked in life.

TLDR: There's absolutely no point freaking out about school. Life's a lot more than that. Take it easy, give it your best shot, but if it isn't working out, there will always be another way.

 

[deletedaccount30982]

I don't want to minimize your struggle. But as someone who also used to be so stressed out with the day to day happenings at school/uni, I now know what happened at school didn't fucking matter in any way at all in life, ultimately. I've honestly seen people who failed, people who barely passed out, people who dropped out for financial / health reasons all make it in life later. In fact, in one of my past jobs, a guy who did GREAT academically was literally working at the same job as one who wasted all his time in school and barely eked out a passing grade. On the flip side, I've seen people who sailed through academics with honors end up completely wrecked in life.

TLDR: There's absolutely no point freaking out about school. Life's a lot more than that. Take it easy, give it your best shot, but if it isn't working out, there will always be another way.

i'm already planning on dropping out after this semester anyway, or at least doing a gap year. i just have to finish this semester out so it wasn't a complete waste of money

 

[LoneMisery]

I feel the same. That people are just tolerant to me. Every time i walk into a room full of acquaintances i feel everyone is just shaking their heads and or rolling their eyes at me. Its a terrible feeling