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BlooBerryBanjo3000

I am born, now I must suffer.
Dec 8, 2024
93
I don't want to do anything. I'm not passionate about anything. I'm not ambitious.

I'm not excited about anything, nothing excites me. I'm not interested in anything, nothing interests me. I'm not motivated to do anything, nothing motivates me.

I don't care about socializing or "networking" with anybody. I don't care about being competitive in life. I have no dreams or goals in life. I don't care about money. I just don't care about anything at all.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Me either never have
 
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betternever2havbeen

Enlightened
Jun 19, 2022
1,133
Same. If I was to be open about this in real life I'm sure I'd be called lazy/feckless/entitled but it's really hard to care about creating a life for yourself when there's nothing you enjoy and nothing you can get out of life.
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
9,598
I feel this. I'm WAY older than you, but any magic in life has long been gone for me. The candle has burned out. However one wants to put it. There's just nothing there anymore, and nothing I even want to be there.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,977
I understand, I've personally never wished to exist, I've never had any interest in existing, more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I find it so deeply undesirable to exist.
 
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twistedtransistor47

twistedtransistor47

I can't survive if this is all that's real
Nov 23, 2024
57
Same. No goals in life, nothing drives me. I just don't want anything life has to offer.
 
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bankai

bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
2,340
same here. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore. no joy at all. i have a good job, own my own home,eat good food, work out,have no health issue. but I have no joy just none.nothing makes me happy.
 
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Kbeau

Specialist
Jan 17, 2021
331
I don't want to do anything. I'm not passionate about anything. I'm not ambitious.

I'm not excited about anything, nothing excites me. I'm not interested in anything, nothing interests me. I'm not motivated to do anything, nothing motivates me.

I don't care about socializing or "networking" with anybody. I don't care about being competitive in life. I have no dreams or goals in life. I don't care about money. I just don't care about anything at all.
I hear ya.
 
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patheticparasite

patheticparasite

sorry
Feb 21, 2025
94
I alternate between not having any goals and deeming everything unachievable. Anyway, the end result is the same: Another wasted day in a wasted life.
 
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Lazy

Lazy

Just let me sleep
Feb 25, 2025
33
Can relate, never had a drive just did what was expected of me.
 
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bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
394
Same i used to cope hard with games, anime, movies etc but now i lost all interest i haven't watched a movie in 18 months now even music is starting to lose is effect while sober, if it wasn't because of my parents rapidly declining health i would have ctb already
 
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Aloneandinpain

Specialist
Dec 25, 2023
375
I don't want to do anything. I'm not passionate about anything. I'm not ambitious.

I'm not excited about anything, nothing excites me. I'm not interested in anything, nothing interests me. I'm not motivated to do anything, nothing motivates me.

I don't care about socializing or "networking" with anybody. I don't care about being competitive in life. I have no dreams or goals in life. I don't care about money. I just don't care about anything at all.
Some of these things might. E issues, but others can be positive.

Realising that money, competitiveness, networking, socialising are mostly bullshit is a positive.

All you really need is you and a special person to share life with.
 

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