Help i don't care if its painful. just need it to be successful

[what_is_NoRMaL?]

hi,
this is my first time posting. been lurking for a long time. so as the title says, i don't necessarily care how painful the method is, i just need it to be successful. the only thing that has been hindering me from ctb, is that i am terrified i will surive.
i have attempted several times before and i lived from them with no long term physical consequences (thankfully).
for many years, i have been reviewing all the possibile ways while also all the possible outcomes if survived. and well, to put it simple, my life is hell, but i would rather deal with the shit i got now, than deal with all the consequences that come with failing another attempt.
i have been thinking about hanging myself- i don't have to worry about anyone finding me, and because i heard how quick this is, i would assume that being alone is an advantage.
but i wanted to hear someone else's thoughts on the "what could go wrong" if i do this method. so any thoughts on those possibilities would be greatly appreciated. my only worry is surviving. i also don't have that wishy washy should i or not. i am very sure of my decision to ctb. i just need a method that will be successful. would hanging be a 100% or should i just not in case something goes wrong?

 

[Zegers]

If you attempt, procure to do it properly, if you jump ie do it from a 10-20 store not 1-2 the SI will kick because its like an alert system to avoid you want to get out of matrix

 

[jcksonb22]

read the "how to hang yourself" thread. this question has been asked/answered thousands of times

 

[what_is_NoRMaL?]

If you attempt, procure to do it properly, if you jump ie do it from a 10-20 store not 1-2 the SI will kick because its like an alert system to avoid you want to get out of matrix

i worry a lot about affecting other people so i would rather do so in my house than make it public. the less people that are aware, the better. i know it will traumatize whoever finds me, and while i don't mean to put a but statement, whoever finds me, will be someone who is "used" to seeing shit like this, and tbh no one cares about me. my death won't be a tragedy. it will be a relief and celebration to all. and some of you will say people do care, and i ask that you don't. none of you know me/know what my life has been like. so please don't offer hope or any uplifting statement. i am very sure of my decision.

read the "how to hang yourself" thread. this question has been asked/answered thousands of times

i did read that. i read it in full. i am just asking of the what ifs something goes wrong- like how to avoid something going wrong. ie, is there a chance the rope could loosen- if that happens, are you a vegetable or would you just wake up and be fine? not sure if you understand what i am asking.