Discussion I do not want to grow old

[Whenhewhenyeah]

The idea of growing old really scares me, watching my already weak and sickly body decay even further sounds painful.

And growing old without starting my own family sounds so damn lonely, like imagine waking up at 45 years old, your back hurts, your room is messy, and worst of all, your house is completely empty, and nobody has come to visit you in years (it was your mother btw)

It sounds so dull, what would motivate anyone to keep going if they haven't found love/purpose by that point?

 

[shampoo sniffer]

I'm scared of ageing and getting even uglier than I already am :(

 

[somethingisntreal]

I've always said "I wont live longer than 13" then it became 16, 20 and now 25. I'm turning 23 in a couple of months. This seriously ends now. I've lived long enough. I'm scared of ending up sadder, uglier and more pathetic than I am right now. I don't know how to cook, drive, pay my bills, can't shop own my own. Still sucking off my parents' money like a parasite. I don't know how to live.

 

[Whenhewhenyeah]

I'm scared of ageing and getting even uglier than I already am :(

Tbh once you are a really old, everyone naturally becomes ugly and wrinkly, so ugly and wrinkly that most people don't want anything to do with them

 

[zombiegirl]

im so sorry rohan jjba i love you

 

[gasforme]

Once you get to a certain age people treat you like a known quantity and don't give you anymore chances. I am worried I will never work again and end up homeless and destitute for no reason other than age.

 

[Whenhewhenyeah]

I've always said "I wont live longer than 13" then it became 16, 20 and now 25. I'm turning 23 in a couple of months. This seriously ends now. I've lived long enough. I'm scared of ending up sadder, uglier and more pathetic than I am right now. I don't know how to cook, drive, pay my bills, can't shop own my own. Still sucking off my parents' money like a parasite. I don't know how to live.

Sounds horrific, ending it may cause your parents great sadness though.

In my case I will try and see if I function well enough and maybe become a glorified caretaker for them in their old age so I feel less bad about being a leech currently.

im so sorry rohan jjba i love you

Rohan jjba™ loves you too

 

[Oreki]

I have exactly the same thoughts. Honestly, I don't want to get old either

 

[Whenhewhenyeah]

Once you get to a certain age people treat you like a known quantity and don't give you anymore chances. I am worried I will never work again and end up homeless and destitute for no reason other than age.

People will no longer give the benefit of the doubt it and it will hurt a lot, it is embarrassing enough to be incompetent as a young adult, imagine being 40 and still in the same situation, no sympathy will be given

 

[whywere]

HEAVENS! I am going to turn 70 in a few months, old?

Well depends on how a person looks at it, I guess.

For me, nope!

I love my work, yep 40 plus hours a week yet and all the folks here, so there in again, age is a number, no more or less.

We are ALL together in this and each of us brings to the table unique talents that help not only the person but all of humanity and age is not a factor in that at all.

Walter

 

[violetforever]

the only time i felt afraid to get old was when i went to the hospital and there was an elderly woman with an oxygen tank in a wheelchair. she looked so frail

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I find it so horrific how a human can be tortured in this existence for decades longer just to face the extreme agony of old age, to exist truly is the most terrible, undeserved punishment to me and what I find horrifying is how humans choose to impose this terrible, dreadful existence onto others causing all this harm and suffering as a result.

What is such horrific extreme cruelty is how many humans want to do all they can to make it so others are tortured in this existence for as much as long as possible, all that pro-lifers do is want others to suffer, they want others to feel the torture and agony of existing, suffering until old age is absoluteley unbearable agony to me in this existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured, the suffering of existing is endless and I always suffer so unbearably from existing in this evil world where it's a crime not wanting to face the agony of old age, the peace of non-existence is all I see as positive for me.

 

[Chabrychek]

I don't want to either. In fact that is one of the main reasons I will commit. Getting older is bearable when you have fond memories of your youth, when you have a large, loving family, when you have money, hope for the future. Without these things, aging is a hell worse than death.

 

[LonelyPrince]

The idea of growing old really scares me, watching my already weak and sickly body decay even further sounds painful.

And growing old without starting my own family sounds so damn lonely, like imagine waking up at 45 years old, your back hurts, your room is messy, and worst of all, your house is completely empty, and nobody has come to visit you in years (it was your mother btw)

It sounds so dull, what would motivate anyone to keep going if they haven't found love/purpose by that point?

That's why my deadline is at 30 in case I actually decide to live and don't ctb sooner.
I don't see myself making it past that age.

 

[Forveleth]

I am almost 45, my back does not hurt because I try to take care of myself and I would love to wake yp alone in my clean house having never had guests for years.

In other words, her life is not the default experience and it does not have to be yours.

 

[ceelobling]

I don't want to grow to be in my 80s and 90s. You see how slow people walk and how slow they do everything. No way am I living in a tired, aching body. I would just ctb at the point. And some gotta be put in the nursing home, too.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I'm 36 and it's clearly over appearance- and energy-wise. The good times of life end by now unless you do things right and enjoy the deep satisfaction of accomplishment, have a career, family, authority. When you're a child-man like me there's no hope.

I'm just scared of the act. Which is why I need a gun. It's gory, but only from an outside perspective. You wouldn't feel the impact or hear the blast. It's basically pushing a button.

 

[Alpacachino]

I don't want to either. In fact that is one of the main reasons I will commit. Getting older is bearable when you have fond memories of your youth, when you have a large, loving family, when you have money, hope for the future. Without these things, aging is a hell worse than death.

Yeah, sadly you need all of those things, not just money. I know wealthy old folks who are utterly miserable.

 

[byou]

The idea of growing old really scares me, watching my already weak and sickly body decay even further sounds painful.

And growing old without starting my own family sounds so damn lonely, like imagine waking up at 45 years old, your back hurts, your room is messy, and worst of all, your house is completely empty, and nobody has come to visit you in years (it was your mother btw)

It sounds so dull, what would motivate anyone to keep going if they haven't found love/purpose by that point?

This is so real

 

[Forveleth]

I'm 36 and it's clearly over appearance- and energy-wise. The good times of life end by now unless you do things right and enjoy the deep satisfaction of accomplishment, have a career, family, authority. When you're a child-man like me there's no hope.

I'm just scared of the act. Which is why I need a gun. It's gory, but only from an outside perspective. You wouldn't feel the impact or hear the blast. It's basically pushing a button.

This is so not true. Between 36 and 40, I lost 50 pounds, worked out enough to get abs, started to learn woodworking, and got a masters degree. The internet acts like once you are 30, things are over. Most people do not even begin to get their shit together until their 30s. Your life is only over once you are dead.

I say this with encouragement as I have watched a parent waste away for decades because "I am just too old and it is too late". They have been saying that for decades. They keep acting like they are going to die tomorrow and have this defeatist attitude of "why bother" except at this point they could have been living a better life (even if not happy, at least better) had they not just sat back and done nothing.

I am not saying yo have to make some grand goals or plan to live to 100, just do not act like you are going to die until you actually are.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

@Forveleth I know 36yos aren't cooked categorically. People play pro sports in their 40s. I'm just so broken by shame and guilt and I want consciousness to stop. If there were some way to be this age without the weight on my mind, I'm sure I could work something out. Can't say I want to. I want to be dead yesterday.

 

[snow leopard]

I don't plan to die old that for sure. Wasted my best years while everyone was having fun to watch myself decay? Fuck that.