Venting I do not want a job!

[angel164]

one of my biggest reasons to wanting to kill myself.

I have felt shame since I was a child for even entertaining this idea. but because this is a place where I feel comfortable saying this, I will.
I will admit.
I do not want to work, I do not want to have a job, I do not want a career, I don't have a Passion for a career, I do not want any job no matter what it is.

I always think of this saying "what's your dream job?
I do not dream of labor" or something like that.

maybe its a gen z thing, maybe its a mental illness thing and or maybe its something that naturally exists in some of us or all? to different degrees.
after all, capitalism is a human invention, we do not have job applications desire in our DNA..
Maybe its because the system is fucked and it removes anything good that is related to having a job, or maybe I JUST DON'T FUCKING WANT ONE.

I always been ashamed of this, because its embarrassing to me. but.. I would LOVE to live off someone else's money.. but I Cant, because its "selfish"..
but I cannot fathom how not having a job feels like my nature, but it is perceived as sooooo wrong.
its such a childish thing to say right? oh i don't want to work.. and what makes me special that i don't and everyone else does... its so STUPID!! but I don't want to force myself to do it just to be a good person
I will die a " bad person" FUCK IT! I Already am with everything else...

admitting this makes me feel so stupid and so useless, i feel like a bad person like I don't deserve to use any resources or even the air i breath, because I am not contributing to society..
is "contributing to society" really a thing, or just something they say to make us work for the pleasures of the elite.... AAAAHHHH I CANT TAKE IT

having a job in this economy feels so helpless, no matter what we do, we still not going anywhere, we still depressed and we still want to die!
when I was a kid, it seemed that everyone was getting jobs and having their dreams fulfilled and now when I am older, its all shit. and they keep telling me its my fault, maybe it is but is it only my fault, when many feel the same too?

my childhood dream life was travelling... literally.. and because everyone want me to get a "respectable job" well.. i decide i will just die instead, dramatic much?

I cannot have a life without having a job, so it adds on to my 100 other reasons to die.. just a cherry on top
its funny that the reason I am applying now, is so I can resource my suicide attempt.. hey, one good reason to have a job i guess?
I just have to find a job that lasts me enough till I ctb, that's how i will deal with all this misery

I envy people with passion and dreams and desire to work. or are they pretending too?
what about you guys here? what do you work? and do you like working? and others who don't work, do you feel the same? I am so curious

 

[FrostNova]

I have tried lots of things over the past 12 years. I understand where you are coming from and the desire to travel. The times I spent in Europe and Asia were the happiest I had ever been. As part of leading up to the journey, this included getting "good" jobs that other people would like, and I would still dump them the second I had enough money to live for a few months in some random ass country before returning and rinsing and repeating. Even if it meant sleeping in an internet cafe. Some people work for only a year or 2 at a time and then backpack across a whole continent. It is possible to do something similar in an even shorter time frame, depending on what you want to experience or what your goals are. The only thing I have to left to offer is some personal advice: is there any way you can take your own interests or passions and make them a way that you can make any money? It doesn't matter how little. The freedom you desire may include some kind of creative outlook you can take advantage of.

 

[ipmanwc0]

I agree with everything you say capitalism sucks so much. It's natural if you feel shameful about it though since capitalism teaches you that you are worthless if you don't work

 

[Vivissa]

"I am not contributing to society.."
have you ever considered that many ppl that are rich doesn't contribute and furthermore, they leech the society. But because they are rich they are productive.
Im struggling with a job. comparative is a mid fair job, maybe a little below of fair, but not exploitation. However I feel working like the worst thing happening, I would rather prefer to be death. I really feel you.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Mäximum]

admitting this makes me feel so stupid and so useless, i feel like a bad person like I don't deserve to use any resources or even the air i breath, because I am not contributing to society..
is "contributing to society" really a thing, or just something they say to make us work for the pleasures of the elite.... AAAAHHHH I CANT TAKE IT

I feel you. I went to school for five years and these were the worst five years of my life. I told myself that, when I will work, then it has to be something that I really like, that I have a passion for — something that I am interested in. So that when I am getting slaved off, it at least feels enjoyable.

But the thing is, there there is nothing I like. There is nothing I have passion for. And nothing I am interested in. A dead end.

 

[Ultimatefighter]

one of my biggest reasons to wanting to kill myself.

I have felt shame since I was a child for even entertaining this idea. but because this is a place where I feel comfortable saying this, I will.
I will admit.
I do not want to work, I do not want to have a job, I do not want a career, I don't have a Passion for a career, I do not want any job no matter what it is.

I always think of this saying "what's your dream job?
I do not dream of labor" or something like that.

maybe its a gen z thing, maybe its a mental illness thing and or maybe its something that naturally exists in some of us or all? to different degrees.
after all, capitalism is a human invention, we do not have job applications desire in our DNA..
Maybe its because the system is fucked and it removes anything good that is related to having a job, or maybe I JUST DON'T FUCKING WANT ONE.

I always been ashamed of this, because its embarrassing to me. but.. I would LOVE to live off someone else's money.. but I Cant, because its "selfish"..
but I cannot fathom how not having a job feels like my nature, but it is perceived as sooooo wrong.
its such a childish thing to say right? oh i don't want to work.. and what makes me special that i don't and everyone else does... its so STUPID!! but I don't want to force myself to do it just to be a good person
I will die a " bad person" FUCK IT! I Already am with everything else...

admitting this makes me feel so stupid and so useless, i feel like a bad person like I don't deserve to use any resources or even the air i breath, because I am not contributing to society..
is "contributing to society" really a thing, or just something they say to make us work for the pleasures of the elite.... AAAAHHHH I CANT TAKE IT

having a job in this economy feels so helpless, no matter what we do, we still not going anywhere, we still depressed and we still want to die!
when I was a kid, it seemed that everyone was getting jobs and having their dreams fulfilled and now when I am older, its all shit. and they keep telling me its my fault, maybe it is but is it only my fault, when many feel the same too?

my childhood dream life was travelling... literally.. and because everyone want me to get a "respectable job" well.. i decide i will just die instead, dramatic much?

I cannot have a life without having a job, so it adds on to my 100 other reasons to die.. just a cherry on top
its funny that the reason I am applying now, is so I can resource my suicide attempt.. hey, one good reason to have a job i guess?
I just have to find a job that lasts me enough till I ctb, that's how i will deal with all this misery

I envy people with passion and dreams and desire to work. or are they pretending too?
what about you guys here? what do you work? and do you like working? and others who don't work, do you feel the same? I am so curious

I think most of us don't