I did the right things but nothing works

[boobieobba]

I listened to my friends and family and pursued a university degree. Now I'm living at home with my family still working at my dead end job which refuses to pay me a living wage and its hard to see a way out.

I exercise consistently (4-5 days/week) my only vice is marijuana, I eat a balanced diet, so in theory i should be fine right?

However I'm tired of working, I'm tired of having to prove myself to my family friends and employer. I hate that I always have to prove that I'm being productive I hate that I can't live without working. I'm constantly tired and I don't see a brighter future. I forsee a future of poverty and homelessness so I might as well end it before it gets worse.

 

[motel rooms]

I exercise consistently (4-5 days/week) my only vice is marijuana, I eat a balanced diet, so in theory i should be fine right?

What theory is that? You can't be miserable if you work out & eat healthy?

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Are you kidding? What about rich and successful people who kill themselves?? We all have our demons and fears. It's absolutely normal to feel shitty inside, even if your life looks decent from the outside.

 

[whywere]

HI! 1st off I am 65, and I only mention this aspect because I have a lot of life experience and oh, yes I have been through the mill of life and have been ground up, spit out and all over again and again. The old saying, yep been there, done that. I never tried to prove myself to any one ever. I learned at oh, 19 or 20 ( 1975 or 1976) that trying to prove to people about myself was a total waste of time. If they did not like something about me and I tried so hard to meet their expectations and if I did, heavens they then found something else. I makes my self happy, follow my own set of drummers and have Teflon coated skin. I got laid off back last June after 30 years with the same firm, yep 30 whole years and I have been looking and firms are out of their minds as far as they want everything and want to compensate with bread crumbs. Now young person who wrote this post, you are very smart, look at how you not only wrote this post but how you take care of yourself. I truly do believe that you have a good future in the job market, it is going to be bumpy no doubt about that but you will do good. When I started out back in the 1970's, I moved around, as far as positions and companies a lot till I hit one that worked for me for 30 years. It takes a lot of time, putting out resumes' , having a network of people that one can count on and persistence. The aspect hurting me right now is my age. OH, YES there is a HUGE aspect of age discrimination out there in the job market, HUGE. I have been on lots of Zoom interviews and when they see my gray hair and the like, it is over in seconds. I send you lots of well wishes and the knowledge that you are going to do great. It takes time, and believing in one's self and NOT EVER worrying about what anyone thinks. Go forward with your head high! Walter

 

[FuneralCry]

Life really can be exhausting, especially when you see a hopeless future ahead of you. Sometimes nothing can make us feel better, I get that. I wish you well, I know how hard it can be.

 

[Hurt]

It sucks when you do your best and still life keeps on disappointing you. I experienced this these last years. Tried to give my best but life still sucks.