penguinl0v3s
Wait for Me 💙
- Nov 1, 2023
- 845
Hi all,
I consider myself mostly recovered--when I say mostly I mean that I don't feel miserable every day to the point that I can't do anything--and my life is moving, albeit with my chronic health conditions still occasionally getting in the way. I had depression with psychosis, PTSD from neglectful parents, abusive relationship, mild dissociation, 2.0 GPA and was on probation, and major dysfunction with friendships. (Reasoning being: people decided not to be my friend because I would experiment with harming and killing myself too much, without regard for their wellbeing.) Probably have autism, discovering that.
For the entirety of the time that I was on the forum, I had voices in my head that I didn't even realize were irregular. They would tell me terrible things about myself and my life, which made me feel as much worse. Looking back, if I had realized that my depression was causing psychosis I could've recovered so much faster. So I hope that anyone who relates to those symptoms will be able to get better more easily.
The biggest challenge for me was being able to accept that recovery would be difficult (ignoring the voices' complaints ab it) and not giving up and thinking of suicide whenever it got hard, because I made a self-commitment. Once I got past that, it got pretty easy. I'm not saying that this would be the case for everyone because I already had a small support circle to help me out, but I wanted to share a success story.
I'm happy to answer any questions too~
I consider myself mostly recovered--when I say mostly I mean that I don't feel miserable every day to the point that I can't do anything--and my life is moving, albeit with my chronic health conditions still occasionally getting in the way. I had depression with psychosis, PTSD from neglectful parents, abusive relationship, mild dissociation, 2.0 GPA and was on probation, and major dysfunction with friendships. (Reasoning being: people decided not to be my friend because I would experiment with harming and killing myself too much, without regard for their wellbeing.) Probably have autism, discovering that.
For the entirety of the time that I was on the forum, I had voices in my head that I didn't even realize were irregular. They would tell me terrible things about myself and my life, which made me feel as much worse. Looking back, if I had realized that my depression was causing psychosis I could've recovered so much faster. So I hope that anyone who relates to those symptoms will be able to get better more easily.
The biggest challenge for me was being able to accept that recovery would be difficult (ignoring the voices' complaints ab it) and not giving up and thinking of suicide whenever it got hard, because I made a self-commitment. Once I got past that, it got pretty easy. I'm not saying that this would be the case for everyone because I already had a small support circle to help me out, but I wanted to share a success story.
I'm happy to answer any questions too~
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