I caved and finally begged my college counselor to let me drop a class

[maybepossiblyithink]

Ive avoided 3 weeks worth of classes because of the anxiety that being forced to show myself on camera caused, and the insane workload that came with it.

5 speeches are due in this half semester for the class and I just tried to do the outline of my second one and i just. Cried.
i'm a selective mute and talking is incredibly stressful for me esp. when every one in that class is 20-30 years old and I'm 19 y/o kid who looks 12. That plus researching and writing speeches on top of my already packed full graphic design projects just isn't going to work.
I feel like a baby but I offered to take extra classes next year or semester to make up for it. I just absolutely can not take the class and I don't want to risk failing all my other classes.

This was just now so I probably won't know til morning, which means Im skipping the class tomorrow too. I just can't do it.

 

[these_days9]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope you get to drop the class. It's just school. Do you feel any relief at least in asking to drop?

also you are not a baby at all. What you're dealing with is hard as shit.

 

[maybepossiblyithink]

I'm sorry you're going through this. I hope you get to drop the class. It's just school. Do you feel any relief at least in asking to drop?

also you are not a baby at all. What you're dealing with is hard as shit.

I actually stopped crying after I asked.
And I feel nice being active on here and distracting myself w/ convo if it means anything.


thank you for understanding it :)

I forgot to add that I've been working on that assignment since 6 am today. I only realized that a while ago. That's probably why i got so overwhelmed but if this works out it'd be worth it.

 

[these_days9]

Well for what it's worth I'm proud of you for working so hard on the assignment. I'm not in school anymore but I remember how hard it was and how hard I could be on myself with no real relief. Like great I get a certain grade, what does that mean? I wish I could say work is any better but I deal with similar anxieties. At least now I can tell myself just do it and you'll get paid. Doesn't really help but it's something. Hang in there as much as you can and glad you're finding relief here. <3

 

[maybepossiblyithink]

Thank you lots. :,)

 

[Deleted member 17949]

I'm heavily considering doing the same so I understand. Education just isn't it when I'm in this state, I can't get out of bed and eat so studying is out of the question.

 

[maybepossiblyithink]

I checked earlier and the counselor agreed to let me drop the class and told me it was okay. It feels really nice to that that out of my way for now.

im gonna take it easy this week but next week I'll start focusing on my graphic design classes.

I'm heavily considering doing the same so I understand. Education just isn't it when I'm in this state, I can't get out of bed and eat so studying is out of the question.

If you choose to, I wish you the best. It seems that people are a bit more understanding about the stress fo everything now.