I cant turn it off anymore

[Sleeper System]

I can rest my body but my mind just won't shut off.
Here we go again. Waking up wishing I were dead.
Dreading having to get out of bed and go to work.
I wish someone would just kill me.
I don't want to do this anymore.

I have to force myself with all my energy and will to
not break down and cry in self pity and sadness.
I am just so tired. Lord help me. Here we go again.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm sorry you are suffering so much. I can completely relate.

Do you struggle sleeping? I find it helps to put something on in the background to distract my mind from worrying. You Tube has loads of great material- from natural sounds like rain and the sea to ASMR- not everyone's cup of tea but it comforts me.

I hope you get through your day quickly and as painlessly as possible.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand being tired of everything. It really is so awful how life can torture us in so many ways. In an ideal world dying would be as easy as just wishing to be gone, eternal sleep sounds like the best thing possible. There does seem to be no real relief from suffering in a life like this.

 

[y'ffre]

The worst part is not the pain but the intrusive/negative thoughts. You can easily think that you are losing your mind. It's real torture.

 

[theboy]

I wish you peace, friend, you are suffering a lot