I can't take it anymore

[escapefromabuse]

I've been through the most harrowing experience of my life the last 2 or so years. I've been left broken spiritually, emotionally and financially. I've had to stay at my mother's house while I try to sort my life baci out. I've had a hard time getting back to work due to severe depression and more than likely ptsd from what I've been through. I see a trauma counselor and he's the only one who really understands.

My sister shows up today and starts talking about how I've got 2 weeks to get out. She followed me around and slammed a door shut while I was trying to walk through it. She said something about destruction of private property. Excuse me what??? I have no words.

My own goddamn family is more toxic than that woman was. Honestly it makes sense why I thought being treated like trash was normal. It's how I was raised.

I have no support system. I had started to feel better lately and bang! Like clockwork I get gut punched. I just can't anymore.

 

[Dead beat dad]

I'm so sorry to hear about your situation brother. To be feeling broken on all levels is awful.
It is good that you have what you see as a good counsellor, I hope that this pathway shines some light for you.
If you're living with you mom why is you sister telling you to leave? Would a mature discussion with all of you help resolve this?
Is your sister in the habit of treating you this way or is she having a bad day and venting it on you?
I relate to the gut punch feeling (as I'm sure will others, it's like we get it daily), don't let that detract from the fact you suggested things were getting better.
I hope this situation is temporary brother and just a hurdle in the road (easy for me to say I know).
Wishing you peace and kindness my brother.
DBD

 

[escapefromabuse]

I'm so sorry to hear about your situation brother. To be feeling broken on all levels is awful.
It is good that you have what you see as a good counsellor, I hope that this pathway shines some light for you.
If you're living with you mom why is you sister telling you to leave? Would a mature discussion with all of you help resolve this?
Is your sister in the habit of treating you this way or is she having a bad day and venting it on you?
I relate to the gut punch feeling (as I'm sure will others, it's like we get it daily), don't let that detract from the fact you suggested things were getting better.
I hope this situation is temporary brother and just a hurdle in the road (easy for me to say I know).
Wishing you peace and kindness my brother.
DBD

This is pretty normal. Mom, sister and brother all work in concert together. Brother was over a few days ago and called me a fuckin' retard for whatever reason. I guess being a part-time pizza delivery guy at 47 years old and living off Mom entitles him to call me names.

I was feeling better emotionally. I'd established boundaries with my nex and I had started to make plans for where I'm going. My "family" has a knack for sucking the energy out of me. I hate sounding pitiful but I'm definitely the black sheep. Nothing is ever good enough. Exactly how that woman treated me.