I already told here about my failure with SN... actually I did it on impulse (I wanted to test it and I did it my way, I wasn't ready for suicide, but if it happened I wouldn't care either).
People look at me with mercy and I feel embarrassed because I was responsible myself... I don't know how to deal with it! Of course I didn't tell the truth... I'm afraid that the truth will come out and that's very uncomfortable.
The real thing is that I could have died if I wasn't saved in the Intensive Care Unit (although there was no Methylene Blue, because I didn't open the game)... I didn't ask to be saved, but what to do when someone thinks you're purple in your bed??? I was alternating between fainting and consciousness... my heartbeats were decompensated between 150 and 45 beats per minute, oscillating between maximum and minimum every second (I think this was expected), low saturation too (67% the last I saw )... After this phase I had several signs of infarction (such as cardiac death enzyme, tropomin) and after days of hospitalization the echocardiogram indicated an alteration in the left ventricle (reduced elasticity and increased weight, very increased compared to the exam from 7 months ago), which I don't know what it means now... I'll update you when I find out.
The problem with it all is that I don't know if I already had any predisposition for a cardiac event (family history, bad diet and chronic stress, yes!) and it is intriguing if this affected the method, precipitating a potential cardiovascular collapse, before the conclusion of the poisoning. in itself. So far I don't know if that was a heart attack either, but it wouldn't scare me if the blood, thick as it was, is caused...
People look at me with mercy and I feel embarrassed because I was responsible myself... I don't know how to deal with it! Of course I didn't tell the truth... I'm afraid that the truth will come out and that's very uncomfortable.
The real thing is that I could have died if I wasn't saved in the Intensive Care Unit (although there was no Methylene Blue, because I didn't open the game)... I didn't ask to be saved, but what to do when someone thinks you're purple in your bed??? I was alternating between fainting and consciousness... my heartbeats were decompensated between 150 and 45 beats per minute, oscillating between maximum and minimum every second (I think this was expected), low saturation too (67% the last I saw )... After this phase I had several signs of infarction (such as cardiac death enzyme, tropomin) and after days of hospitalization the echocardiogram indicated an alteration in the left ventricle (reduced elasticity and increased weight, very increased compared to the exam from 7 months ago), which I don't know what it means now... I'll update you when I find out.
The problem with it all is that I don't know if I already had any predisposition for a cardiac event (family history, bad diet and chronic stress, yes!) and it is intriguing if this affected the method, precipitating a potential cardiovascular collapse, before the conclusion of the poisoning. in itself. So far I don't know if that was a heart attack either, but it wouldn't scare me if the blood, thick as it was, is caused...
