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- Nov 19, 2025
- 98
I just can't believe that even if I die early, it's going to be a shitty, low-quality death.
I don't know how to be a trailblazer, but I wanted to be the guy who said to those important to me: "My time is near. The last time I said goodbye to you, I hoped it'd be the last. If you need another goodbye, come gather at my hotel bedside for some sugar, 1900s R&B, 2000s electronica, and let's me laugh at your misguided hope that things'll get better, and let's celebrate the end of a chapter more painful than anyone should tolerate" and maybe "RSVP early because I bought too much" and maybe "If this is a lot to ask of you, then kindly remember that the aggressively downward trajectory of my—not just the low quality, but especially the speed of its disintegration—is a lot to ask of me".
Instead it appears an early death will just be me sneaking around and just a shitty old-fashioned, low quality, low joy, high mental discomfort death. It should come as no surprise. But come on, even dying has to be awful?!
I don't know how to be a trailblazer, but I wanted to be the guy who said to those important to me: "My time is near. The last time I said goodbye to you, I hoped it'd be the last. If you need another goodbye, come gather at my hotel bedside for some sugar, 1900s R&B, 2000s electronica, and let's me laugh at your misguided hope that things'll get better, and let's celebrate the end of a chapter more painful than anyone should tolerate" and maybe "RSVP early because I bought too much" and maybe "If this is a lot to ask of you, then kindly remember that the aggressively downward trajectory of my—not just the low quality, but especially the speed of its disintegration—is a lot to ask of me".
Instead it appears an early death will just be me sneaking around and just a shitty old-fashioned, low quality, low joy, high mental discomfort death. It should come as no surprise. But come on, even dying has to be awful?!
