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__overlord_00

__overlord_00

Living with dying...
Dec 9, 2025
9
I always wanted to cut myself, there's not much in this...I can't cut myself like i thought I could...
sometimes I really want to but then I can't because the blade makes me pause and i just never pick up after that...i just let it go.
instead I use a metal piece to cut myself...
all superficial cuts, no blood at all. I want to see myself bleed but i can't because it's fear? or could be something...I dunno.

help on this please?
 
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Zura

Zura

WhenLife?
Jan 26, 2026
49
thats a good thing there is nothing wrong with hesitating to cause yourself harm
the people who do sh the huge majority of them try to quit it for good themselves and i hope they succeed
its your body naturals response to try to stop you from causing it harm
 
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ugulamugula

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Mar 25, 2026
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I also can´t cut myself. But when i have breakdowns i just punch myself in the Face. I punch myself so hard that i get dents and shit in my face lol. I guess if you´re really fucked up or some shit you just ignore your Brain and hurt yourself. Im not telling you to hurt yourself, but it will just happen, maybe not through cutting yourself but mybe through punching, burning etc.
 
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doener11

doener11

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Jun 17, 2023
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You kinda just have to be in a trance when you do it. You can't think too deeply otherwise it's just not going to work, bc instincts are an incredibly strong feeling. It is natural to want to restrain yourself from hurting yourself. You can either just use a sharper knife so you don't have to do as much mental convincing, or force yourself, both work just as well. I suffer from this now as well, and I can do only 2 cuts at once now, but my will to do it has dropped a lot over the years.
If you want to quit or decline in sh, having fear is a big help in doing that <3
 
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charlavail

Student
Mar 19, 2026
138
hey, if you can't do it count yourself "lucky". it's an addiction i wish I didn't have. i have the "tools" to deal with my high emotional moments but the thing that works for me is cutting. my thigh is covered in scars, which i mean i don't really care about but it's a slippery slope. i was clean for ove 15 years before relapsing. trust me, you don't want to get into this
 
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Aplev

not sure what to put here?
Oct 16, 2021
140
It was really hard for me too. It's not an addiction for me but... I kinda feel you. Like... I'm not saying this is you, but maybe it sort of is an addiction for me? I don't do it super often but I hate it when I want to and I can't. Last time was surprisingly easy though, and was probably one of my strongest cuts although in intensity, not in quantity (it was just one cut, but I don't think any of my previous left as much blood nor hurt as much). Right now I feel like I just can't though, and I know this is probably an insult to people who wish they didn't cut themselves but... I really really hate it when I don't sh for a long time. Yet, at the same time, I realize I add more pain to myself... and maybe that's what kinda stops me. Deep inside, I still wish I did. I don't get those 'that was such a good thing that I didn't sh' kind of feelings.

There's other ways like some people been mentioning, too. In fact, I wasn't really aware of it but I sh'ed even before I cut myself. Something I've done multiple times is use my fingernails to cause scars on my face. Made it obvious, but nobody really cared (I'm not joking btw, that's the kind of environment where it happened, and as an adult not much people see me other than the people in the street, and the people who did see it are so ignorant they thought it was just one more wound like... whatever).

It's not really an advice... but more like a 'I feel similar' kind of thing.
 
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ariebell

painful days.
Apr 9, 2026
4
Yeah, you're not alone in that. Sometimes I have really strong panic attacks and I feel like sh would really help me calm down. It would also be a better option than trying to hang myself without any preparation, I guess, but I'm simply too cowardly to cut myself...
 
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__overlord_00

Living with dying...
Dec 9, 2025
9
thats a good thing there is nothing wrong with hesitating to cause yourself harm
the people who do sh the huge majority of them try to quit it for good themselves and i hope they succeed
its your body naturals response to try to stop you from causing it harm
i guess you are right about it. maybe i should stop, but idk i feel very unstable at times.. my mood spikes don't allow me the thing straight at all. thank for you such kind words man, hope you have a good day 💚
I also can´t cut myself. But when i have breakdowns i just punch myself in the Face. I punch myself so hard that i get dents and shit in my face lol. I guess if you´re really fucked up or some shit you just ignore your Brain and hurt yourself. Im not telling you to hurt yourself, but it will just happen, maybe not through cutting yourself but mybe through punching, burning etc.
nah bro, i hope you're doing alright. i hope your face is alright dude 😭
and i also hope that you find a way to cope other than hurting yourself. have a good day 💚
You kinda just have to be in a trance when you do it. You can't think too deeply otherwise it's just not going to work, bc instincts are an incredibly strong feeling. It is natural to want to restrain yourself from hurting yourself. You can either just use a sharper knife so you don't have to do as much mental convincing, or force yourself, both work just as well. I suffer from this now as well, and I can do only 2 cuts at once now, but my will to do it has dropped a lot over the years.
If you want to quit or decline in sh, having fear is a big help in doing that <3
for me it's not with a razor blade as the moment i touch it I can't move, I want to desperately but I can't end up doing it..

honestly I feel like sh helps only at times when i feel really really overwhelmed and feel like losing control and even after whatever the hell i do to myself a couple hours later I hate myself to doing or even thinking about sh.

i really don't understand how I work
T - T
It was really hard for me too. It's not an addiction for me but... I kinda feel you. Like... I'm not saying this is you, but maybe it sort of is an addiction for me? I don't do it super often but I hate it when I want to and I can't. Last time was surprisingly easy though, and was probably one of my strongest cuts although in intensity, not in quantity (it was just one cut, but I don't think any of my previous left as much blood nor hurt as much). Right now I feel like I just can't though, and I know this is probably an insult to people who wish they didn't cut themselves but... I really really hate it when I don't sh for a long time. Yet, at the same time, I realize I add more pain to myself... and maybe that's what kinda stops me. Deep inside, I still wish I did. I don't get those 'that was such a good thing that I didn't sh' kind of feelings.

There's other ways like some people been mentioning, too. In fact, I wasn't really aware of it but I sh'ed even before I cut myself. Something I've done multiple times is use my fingernails to cause scars on my face. Made it obvious, but nobody really cared (I'm not joking btw, that's the kind of environment where it happened, and as an adult not much people see me other than the people in the street, and the people who did see it are so ignorant they thought it was just one more wound like... whatever).

It's not really an advice... but more like a 'I feel similar' kind of thing.
imo i was never the person to do it for show.. and it does feel like an addiction. I haven't felt too much of it but I felt enough to say it could turn into one...
and as you're wording it..maybe it's good that I'm not too deep into it.

and I'm sorry that you have to live in that type of environment where people are THAT oblivious.
honestly fuck them.
I hope you heal from all this bro 💚
hey, if you can't do it count yourself "lucky". it's an addiction i wish I didn't have. i have the "tools" to deal with my high emotional moments but the thing that works for me is cutting. my thigh is covered in scars, which i mean i don't really care about but it's a slippery slope. i was clean for ove 15 years before relapsing. trust me, you don't want to get into this
I guess you are right...maybe getting too deep in this isn't gonna be what I've been thinking it'll be, what it i fuck myself up even more...

i so sorry you have to go through that once again, I hope you're better and healing. i wish you the best dude 💚
Yeah, you're not alone in that. Sometimes I have really strong panic attacks and I feel like sh would really help me calm down. It would also be a better option than trying to hang myself without any preparation, I guess, but I'm simply too cowardly to cut myself...
likewise...
i commonly have anxiety attacks so i shrink onto myself and on top my family doubles down on me. it gets hard sometimes but as the guys above said maybe sh shouldn't be the best decision right now...

i wish I could tell you an alt to get you to feel better but I'm finding that for my own...

i hope for you to heal 💚
 
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lilli_188

麾 lili
Apr 8, 2026
12
Like many things in this life, SH is definitely something that you 'have' to do once and then it sticks with you.

I understand the pain you must feel not being able to hurt yourself. I definitely was like this once too, or maybe still am knowing I've been forced into an era of "recovery" to appease those around me. Sometimes the worst of the pain comes from the fact that you lack control over your life. When everything else is falling apart around you, the only thing you have control of is your own body. Could be that you decide to hurt yourself with an assortment knives or starvation/over-eating, or maybe that you change your appearance entirely.

I wish you peace in whatever you pursue in this lifetime. Your pain is definitely heard on this end .. (\_/)
 
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yourlocalprotist

A-B-C-D-E-F-U-C-K-I-C-E
Jan 29, 2026
24
Hey, that's actually lucky. You have free will, and have probably heard what I'm about to say a lot. With that aside, I advise against starting/going deeper. The deeper you go, the harder (at least in my experience) it is to quit.
 

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