I believe I’ll never matter

[prototypian]

I know I'm not wired to fight. I'm not wired to take credit. I'm not wired to sell. I hate engaging with other people. I dislike teams. I don't care about success. I don't care about growth or markets or increasing year over year revenue.

With those thoughts as my basis I'm convinced that I'll never matter. I'll never be successful in the modern capitalist society, I'll either have to adapt or die and at this point I choose die. I'm not a marine and I'm not an alpha. I really don't want to live. I'm tired of doing what I do, I'm tired of manipulation and convincing people to buy things or save money by spending money. I don't care if the whole system crumbles.

I hope to die soon and not be remembered or to have mattered at all.

 

[jbdCkFqV]

I'm frustrated by how society tells us that that we have to be exceptional and extraordinary to be successful, but by definition we can't all be superstars. Plus "success" is so narrowly defined as being outgoing, rich, charismatic, oh and willing to step of people to get what you want.

 

[NonEssential]

Same, I feel like lacking the capabilities to even just be like your average adult makes me just want to go.