I am not a suicidal

[Whiskeyjames]

I am not a suicidal,
I don't wear seatbelt when I drive because it makes me uncomfortable;
I cut myself because I enjoy the pain it makes me thankful;
I isolated myself from love ones because I am irresponsible,
I am not a sucidal,
I often hike near the cliff because of the adrenaline rush,
I over does on drug because I like to test my limits,
I attempted to sucide because I want to see what is behind,
I am not sucidal, I just don't feel comfortable.

Death is the only thing promised to every living beings. Everything else in life is a bonus. Having a proper body is a bonus, having family and friend are bonuses, We don't entitled to anything, but if you want anything, you have to work for it.

None will ever understand you because your existence is unique, noone will ever experienced everything you experienced, so you shall never expect anyone to understand you. Life itself is indeed meaningless but everything around it is not.

I am not sucidal, wait, I just forgot to take my pills