Venting I always end up crying after I eat?!

[BlueButterfly111]

I've been kind of binge-eating lately, not sure why I just really enjoy food now and I get hungry a lot more. I won't say I have binge eating disorder, because this just started, but every time I get hungry and stressed I just want to eat everything in site. I often end up getting or eating way more food than I actually needed after I'm already full.

But almost every time it's over or towards the end I start crying and thinking about how much I hate my life and how alone I feel, and how much everyone hates me. And how much I miss my dead boyfriend, and how everyone has more support and love than me and how I feel like the loneliest person in the world.

Just wanted to see if anyone else relates, and why do I always do that after I start eating? The only thing I can think is that I'm thinking of the food and how much I'm gonna enjoy it, but once the high of it is over I'm back sad? Could be a lot of different things going on. Anyone else relate?

 

[sweetdrowning]

Yes I relate to this so much. I've used food to make me feel better and cope my whole life... When I'm eating I don't think of anything else, but when I'm done everything else floods back in. It's awful.. I totally understand that feeling

 

[violetforever]

emotional eating? i think u eat to distract urself from crying but u eventually get full so it's over and u cry anyway. sometimes food is a temporary relief for me too

 

[laterAlagator801]

It's feels I can relate in a way ..

I eat but I don't like to it feels wrong idk why it feels weird.. like I don't deserve to eat but ya I get that..

 

[Alpacachino]

Of course,since the food is over

But yeah, I've also been binging a lot during Christmas and New Year. Mostly on cake.Working all those calories off now though.