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lostinthecha0s

lostinthecha0s

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Jul 29, 2026
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I use hunger pangs as a form of SH. The feeling of my stomach in agony feels like something I deserve. I've struggled with anorexia since I was a kid when my medication made me lose all appetite, and in my teen years that became body dysmophia and starving myself to get thinner. Come collage I began to deny myself food when my grades dropped beyond a certain point. Trash doesn't deserve to eat. Now it's fucked up my digestion so much that when I do want to eat it only takes a couple bites before I feel sick, and even to this day when my depression is bad I won't eat beyond the bare minimum to keep me from getting sick.

Hopefully I wither away one day and disappear
 
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Widow39

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Aug 16, 2026
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Omg, dying of starvation is probably one of worst possible deaths BTW 😓
 
lastappleonearth

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Jun 11, 2026
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I use hunger pangs as a form of SH. The feeling of my stomach in agony feels like something I deserve. I've struggled with anorexia since I was a kid when my medication made me lose all appetite, and in my teen years that became body dysmophia and starving myself to get thinner. Come collage I began to deny myself food when my grades dropped beyond a certain point. Trash doesn't deserve to eat. Now it's fucked up my digestion so much that when I do want to eat it only takes a couple bites before I feel sick, and even to this day when my depression is bad I won't eat beyond the bare minimum to keep me from getting sick.

Hopefully I wither away one day and disappear
I also did this, though not to this extent. Idk why I stopped doing it, but I hope you can also someday stop doing that to yourself, you deserve good and tasty food
 

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