I've had quite a few friends. I don't even know if I should consider them my friends. I told a few of them about my depression and suicidal thoughts. Some just didn't know how to react maybe and drifted off. Some tried to be there but they were inconsistent. Maybe just 2-3 days they were there.
My crush? Well he — I'm confused about him. He listened to me for 45-50mins that day. Just both of us alone in the class. Him giving me some advice. He doesn't know I like him ( or maybe w does? ). But he leaves me on delivered for hours and replies later ( yes even if his last seen was a few hours ago ) and that confuses me. I'm just not gonna talk to him.
Tbh I'm done with friendships. I don't want friends anymore. I cannot make friends. I lack the skills. I lack common things people have, I'm so uninteresting.
Tbh it feels good to wonder about their guilt, and reactions after I'm gone.
My crush? Well he — I'm confused about him. He listened to me for 45-50mins that day. Just both of us alone in the class. Him giving me some advice. He doesn't know I like him ( or maybe w does? ). But he leaves me on delivered for hours and replies later ( yes even if his last seen was a few hours ago ) and that confuses me. I'm just not gonna talk to him.
Tbh I'm done with friendships. I don't want friends anymore. I cannot make friends. I lack the skills. I lack common things people have, I'm so uninteresting.
Tbh it feels good to wonder about their guilt, and reactions after I'm gone.
