How was your school life?Did you have a happy school life?

[iwanttodie019]

I had a miserable school life.

Being shy and sensitive did not help at all.
It led to a lot of bullying.

I still hate my childhood bullies and I have CPTSD from my school life

 

[Namelesa]

FUCKING miserable. Its what made me first suicidal and depressed in the first place and I still have nightmares about it to this day. I just couldn't emotionally handle the stressful, boring torturous work for long hours at a day per day while dealing with the constant fear of teachers getting angry or disappointed at me or having to see them do that with other students. I probably just pathetic but still fuck school for still greatly negatively effecting me to this day.

 

[TwistedNightmares]

Mine was miserable. I was constantly bullied and outcasted no matter what school I went to.

 

[Forveleth]

My school life was very different depending on the era I was in. In elementary, I was the naive, happy-go-lucky kid and all was flowers and rainbows. In middle school I was starting to struggle socially but did fine academically. High school had me a full social outcast and I was starting to struggle academically. In college I was an absolute disaster.

 

[starboy2k]

elementary school was a shitshow.
middle school was a shitshow.
high school was a shitshow.
I didn't even finish college because I realized I was too retarded to do so.

 

[silverana]

Unhappy. But that was more about me than other people who mostly didn't know how to help

 

[littlecutecorpse]

fuuucks no, school was a depressing shithole, ESPECIALLY in high school. hell, i didn't even FINISH high school after burnout and depression fucked me over. i was bullied to hell in my elementary/middle school years. and maybe i was in high school, even. i'm not sure.

seems like all that school has taught me is that everyone's a pos in which they try to hide it through treats and events and fun positivity bs to distract us all from the miserable hellhole we go to daily. faculty didn't help in the slightest.

maybe i'm just shedding my angsty earlier teen self rn, but i can't help but be frustrated when i think about my school years. :/

 

[heywey]

My family moved around a lot growing up, so all told I went to... six different schools? Seven if you count a year of homeschooling. I dropped out my junior year of high school, I was going to a place was just a nightmare. There was one school where I was actually comfortable, I struggled a bit but it was a manageable sort of struggle; I wonder how things could have been different if I had stayed there.

Take it from me folks, you're not the problem, 95% of schools really do just suck. It's not something inherent to the education process or anything, it's possible for them to be okay, they're just not.

 

[cosimaniehaus]

I really loved the high school I went to, and my classmates too, and even 10 years later I can't let them go. I think about someone from there almost every day, even though I don't keep in touch with any of them.
Since I've known them, I've idealized them, and that feels weird because I've never idealized anyone without reason. I was never interested in people who were just superficially popular, and they weren't like that, but still, I never really belonged there, even though I wanted to.

What hurts the most is that I was in the right place at the right time. For a period, I was surrounded by people I would have loved to be friends with, and that high school was like a salvation compared to elementary, which was CONSTANT bullying ( I just learned to deal with it) but I was always "not enough" for the people I wanted to be close to, as I later realized in high school. And I'm sad because I've always picked friends based on normal stuff: if they're kind, if we click, if I can share secrets without them spilling, if we can laugh at things together, but even with that, I was not enough, or I was weird, or boring, or stood out, I don't know.

In 2016 I completely broke down and started taking really heavy psychiatric meds, and since then it feels like I have no personality, no empathy, no humor, no intelligence, nothing. I totally understand why anyone would reject being friends with me, it's fair.

But before 2016? Only about three photos were ever taken of me, and two of them were mandatory class pictures. I don't know why I never fit in.
It feels like i'm a double loser because I was rejected by people who weren't even cruel, and that hurts so much.

Probably it's me, I'm a loser and I always will be

 

[Tombadil]

I am 48 and i still suffer from the trauma it gave me. I will take that to my grave.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I had a happy/normal school life.

 

[Custos]

Wish I knew the difference between bullying/abuse/assault back then.

 

[iwanttodie019]

I am 48 and i still suffer from the trauma it gave me. I will take that to my grave.

I had a happy/normal school life.

I had a happy/normal school life.

then what happened now that you are here in SS?
if you are comfortbale disclosing

 

[MissAbyss]

I wasn't at school much, and honestly, the rare times I did show up were nothing to write home about.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

Bad, pretty much from start to finish.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

then what happened now that you are here in SS?
if you are comfortbale disclosing

Well, I'm in my late 40s, and I suffer from a big failure in life. That led to financial issues (basically a business failure), stress, depressive episodes and all that made me suicidal. Ultimately, I ended up here when I reached rock bottom and saw no other way out but CTB.

Currently, I'm hardly suicidal bc my situation actually didn't get worse, so over the years, a slow recovery process started and is going on. Fragile and slow, but it's a recovery process.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Hated high school, cut classes as best I could.

 

[Spite]

My school life was horrific. I was subjected to merciless, relentless bullying and torment at the hands of my peers. The bullying was so bad I wanted to commit suicide when I was 14. I am forever traumatised by everything I went through in school. It's hard for me to trust people now. I feel a lot of distress whenever I see teenagers out and about, especially groups of them. Whenever I hear people laughing my heart freezes up for a split second and I always worry if they are laughing at me, just like how people used to point and laugh at me when I was in school. I'm afraid of people in general and I always assume people are out to hurt me.

I'm a ruined person, and school destroyed me. I feel nothing but immeasurable scorn for the depraved, disgusting people who inflicted so much pain and suffering onto me. They put me through Hell. I feel nothing but hate in my heart for all of those people who looked down on me, treated me like inferior scum, and tossed me aside like I am worthless trash.

And the real kicker? As far as I'm aware, pretty much all of my bullies have gone on to live enjoyable, fulfilling and enriching lives. They all have their own social circles, they're outgoing and hold down stable careers. Some of them have even married and settled down. They're not mentally ill like me. They're not a friendless loser like I am. I, on the other hand, have to carry the years and years of trauma they all inflicted upon me. I'm the one who has to suffer. I'm a suicidal trainwreck with almost nothing worth living for.

They hurt me. I will never forgive them.

 

[Arvayn]

Kindergarten was fun. Elementary school was normal. Middle school, I was actually quite well liked since I was friendly with people. By highschool I became more reclusive and did my best to mind my own business, which led to some bullying, but I was left alone after bullying them back.
I did not like highschool. By the time I was in 12th grade, I already knew what I wanted to do with my future and all that I could think about was how much of a giant waste of time it is, and that I can't wait for it to be over. It also did not mentally stimulate me in any significant manner, and I never had to study because every test could be aced with a combination of general knowledge and 10 minutes of cramming before class.
I graduated top of my class and felt like I wasted 12 years of my life just to get a piece of paper. All of my classmates were remarkable specimens. Never met any kid with their head on their shoulders there.

 

[leloyon]

You lot had a school life?

I was in and out of secondary schools. Primary school was alright but mental illnesses developing early due to genetic predisposition really fucked it in a lot of ways.

 

[bigwomanbigwoman123]

in general i just wasted my childhood. i spent it all inside and i spent every hour at school waiting to go home. i rarely had friends and i think its because of that that i never developed basic social skills you need to live

oh and i literally didnt go to school at all in year 9-10 so that makes it even worse

 

[SilentSadness]

My school life was completely miserable and the worst part of my life. I remember so much pain and suffering including being shouted at by teachers for 10+ minutes, anxiety from teachers expecting me to work faster, bullying from other students, boring work and homework that was extremely tedious, teachers who were completely oblivious but expected you to be oblivious as well, and of course freezing to death from mandatory contact sports wearing a t-shirt in winter while the sadistic teachers wore thick coats and gloves. My hands were so cold that I couldn't put my school uniform back on until maybe half an hour of waiting, this became a regular occurence. Also, several times I was injured by the other students and didn't even receive an apology. I hate everything about school and would kill myself immediately if I had to go back there again.

 

[FoxSauce]

School was ok- ish. Anxiety and depression lingered no mater how hard I try to ignore it.

Didn't make any freinds for low self-esteem and my own perceptions. Still achieving good grades to try to be noticed by my parents and make them proud.

Tries my best to be happy even tho home life was hell, expectations were high, fights were constant yet normal? Still a had freinds (or people that pretended) yet I felt so distant, I couldn't be myself around no one out of fear.

I dunno how I manage tbh

 

[Quantum_Marten0302]

It was terrible and im glad its over

 

[Lady_V]

In middle school I was bullied anime-style by girls . They would pile trash on my desk every day and they would corner me with their friends to assault me and steal from me. I was in the mental hospital by 13 and my whole grade found out. In high school the aggressive bullying stopped but I was really embarrassed I had no friends. There was a point I was eating lunch in the bathroom so no one saw me eating by myself. Having no friends was a major reason why I dropped out of hs the second I turned 15.

 

[scots]

Lonely. Homeschooled since second semester of 4th grade online. Had 1 friend in high school who moved to public school after a year and we stopped talking. Most of my entire school "career" was friendless like it is now. And on top of the "boo-hoo you've got no friends," I've permanently damaged my eyesight because I spent 12-18 hours virtually every day for 7 years on electronics (mainly a desktop monitor 1-2 feet away from my face). Sometimes life doesn't even feel real when looking at things anymore. I can't see whether people are looking at me when they're more than 3 feet away, and things in poor lighting are impossible for me to see. Even on the rare occasion I go outside to take out the trash, the light from the sun makes me cringe and I have to close my eyes or squint.

 

[miles-away]

I was homeschooled by weird, isolationist parents and that contributed to me being an agoraphobe that never left the house for four years. Sooo...bad, I guess? I wasn't bullied but I had zero friends and interacted with no outside my family. I dont have a high school education. I was also borderline obese and so disgusted by my appearance I have nrar zero photos of me as a teen.

 

[star.trip]

I did well at school because it was the only place where nobody yelled at me. Since I was a good student, despite the atmosphere at home, people would come up to me to ask me to explain things from class. It was like having short-lived friends. The bad thing was that when someone picked on me, I had a terrible time because everything I was hiding (I mean the suffering at home) came out and I started crying like a weak and cowardly person.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

My school life was completely miserable and the worst part of my life. I remember so much pain and suffering including being shouted at by teachers for 10+ minutes, anxiety from teachers expecting me to work faster, bullying from other students, boring work and homework that was extremely tedious, teachers who were completely oblivious but expected you to be oblivious as well, and of course freezing to death from mandatory contact sports wearing a t-shirt in winter while the sadistic teachers wore thick coats and gloves. My hands were so cold that I couldn't put my school uniform back on until maybe half an hour of waiting, this became a regular occurence. Also, several times I was injured by the other students and didn't even receive an apology. I hate everything about school and would kill myself immediately if I had to go back there again.

How horrible. I was also bullied, sometimes physically assaulted in front of fucking schoolteachers who didn't do anything to stop it.

 

[iwanttodie019]

How horrible. I was also bullied, sometimes physically assaulted in front of fucking schoolteachers who didn't do anything to stop it.

WHere are you from?Are you from India?