How to say goodbye

[Jamesun]

I think I've decided to end it all, to die once and for all. I don't know the method yet, although I think I'll opt for hanging myself. I can't find a reason to stay here, I'm not good at anything and I'm not useful, but there's something that worries me: how to leave without hurting the few people who care about me, It causes me anxiety just thinking about the suffering I will cause them when I do it, that they might think they could help me even though I believe the opposite. I would like to know if there is any way to prevent them from suffering. I thought about simply making them hate me or something similar, or just disappearing without a trace and dying far away from anyone who knew me.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I don't think there is any way to spare them pain.
I wish I could do the same. If you choose to leave a note, you can try to explain there is nothing they could have done to change your mind.
I also wish I could just disappear but there will still be the pain of not knowing what happened to you.
I wish you the best whatever you decide to do.

 

[Nolongerlive]

You can't do anything to ease their suffering, unless u don't ctb.

Just don't let them witness your going and choose a more peaceful method. That will reduce the pain.

Time will slowly heal them.

 

[Phyreen]

I face the same dilemma. Sometimes, I just feel so torn up with guilt about it. I've sobbed at night thinking about the pain that'll follow my family for the rest of their lives. But what am I to do? I just don't know. I don't know.

 

[Jamesun]

I don't think there is any way to spare them pain.
I wish I could do the same. If you choose to leave a note, you can try to explain there is nothing they could have done to change your mind.
I also wish I could just disappear but there will still be the pain of not knowing what happened to you.
I wish you the best whatever you decide to do.

I also considered the possibility of writing a note explaining everything, but I'm not good with words or expressing what I feel.