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lonerclown666

Mage
Dec 1, 2020
540
i think im ready but i dont have courage in do it im stuck i dont know what to do im very afraid of forever darkness wish reincarnation was real or God so i can go more easy i dont believe that we only live once but if we does then is more difficult in do it
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
I wish I could help you with a good advice, but I have none. I'm stuck here myself……
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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In my case I think I will only be able to overcome the survival instinct when I reach a point of desperation/hopelessness and I cannot think past the suicidal thoughts. It is hard to overcome as we are programmed to survive. As for fear of death itself, the thought of nothingness is comforting for me. I do not understand how someone could be scared of that as you simply do not experience anything. I'm sorry you are suffering, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.
 
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MeltedJello

MeltedJello

My brain is a liquid mess.
Aug 18, 2021
2,213
Maybe you also fear of the consequences of failing to achieve death? For me, I believe that's another reason that stops me aside from my stupid survival instinct. Like many here, I accept death and I'm waiting for a time where I don't care anymore of what happens when I try to finally ctb.
 
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rosie93

rosie93

Student
Aug 28, 2021
152
Maybe you also fear of the consequences of failing to achieve death? For me, I believe that's another reason that stops me aside from my stupid survival instinct. Like many here, I accept death and I'm waiting for a time where I don't care anymore of what happens when I try to finally ctb.
This. I'm scared I will fail at killing myself just as I fail at everything in my life. I'm scared I won't die causing just more problems for people around me.
 
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ElyNoFantasy

Member
Sep 7, 2021
19
I'd say, just think about life and all your problems. All the suffering you'd be able to avoid by dying. There is a good chance that you'll just disappear, and even if there is an after-life, it certainly won't be as bad as life right now...
 

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