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Hi

How can I obtain Nembutal in India ?
Where and at what cost ?
How do I ensure I am not getting scammed?
How to ensure purity of the product?
 
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thehorizons

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Mar 25, 2026
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I'm not in India, but it's impossible to source it anywhere unless you get assisted suicide from a medical professional. All of us have pretty much given up on the idea of N, even going to Peru or Bolivia to obtain it now seems like a bust. They might as well title 'Peacefull Pill Handbook' to just 'Peacefull Handbook.' There is no more 'Peaceful Pill.'
 
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Salkak

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Dec 9, 2021
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I'm not in India, but it's impossible to source it anywhere unless you get assisted suicide from a medical professional. All of us have pretty much given up on the idea of N, even going to Peru or Bolivia to obtain it now seems like a bust. They might as well title 'Peacefull Pill Handbook' to just 'Peacefull Handbook.' There is no more 'Peaceful Pill.'
I have realised no painless method is available to normal public
 
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thehorizons

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Mar 25, 2026
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I have realised no painless method is available to normal public
I have oral cancer (I don't think it's severe now until I get official diagnosis soon), so I might be eligible for it down the line when the cancer eats up tongue, gums, and entire mouth. Even then it may not work for me cause I have a neurological disorder that might give me a paradoxical reaction to N. Yeah, it's fucked up. There is no true painless method.
 
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Salkak

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Dec 9, 2021
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I have oral cancer (I don't think it's severe now until I get official diagnosis soon), so I might be eligible for it down the line when the cancer eats up tongue, gums, and entire mouth. Even then it may not work for me cause I have a neurological disorder that might give me a paradoxical reaction to N. Yeah, it's fucked up. There is no true painless method.
Shit man I'm so sorry for your situation.
 
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thehorizons

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Mar 25, 2026
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Shit man I'm so sorry for your situation.
No worries. I'm kind of numb to it. Each day feels like fiction to me. This is why I want to CTB, so I can 'wake' up or not wake up (hopefully but we'll never know cause we haven't gone to the other side yet). I never thought about CTB-ing prior to my illnesses. I did learn the difference between mental problems versus physical problems after my illnesses appeared. I guess it's humbled me a lot. I don't want to spend all day thinking about CTB too. It makes me feel mentally unwell every day. I just want to do my research on here, wrap it up as soon as possible and be on my way.
 
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Salkak

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No worries. I'm kind of numb to it. Each day feels like fiction to me. This is why I want to CTB, so I can 'wake' up or not wake up (hopefully but we'll never know cause we haven't gone to the other side yet). I never thought about CTB-ing prior to my illnesses. I did learn the difference between mental problems versus physical problems after my illnesses appeared. I guess it's humbled me a lot.
I understand.
I only have mental illness but I feel the same like my life is some kind of fiction and only dying will get me out of this nightmare
 

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